Friday, November 12, 2010
I have come to the realization that I can't seem to communicate or conversate very well with others. This seems very apparent to me when I am at work. I have a supervisor who I really like and value but when I try to talk to him I feel like I have my feet in my mouth. I work with several other ladies who I don't really trust, they have shown themselves to be two-faced and untrustworthy. It makes me very sad, I want to keep my job and excel but I wonder if it will get any better. Not only that I feel so crippled in my ability to "shrug things off" the other ladies accuse me of being "too sensitive", "thin skinned" and I just want to tell them off but because I am on probation I feel I have to just take it til I pass. I just feel at a loss for words when the staff gathers around to talk and I feel I just can't join in. I thought I could just be quiet & work but in the end I just feel left out.