Friday, November 12, 2010
I feel awful. I keep trying to go back to my positive, healthy ways...but I keep falling off the wagon. I was doing great all week with my eating habits; I had healthy meals, filled with fresh fruit and veggies. I stayed within my calorie range. I felt good.
So what do I do today? Eat an entire bag of chips. A large one. (Don't calculate those claories...its a horrible experience, lol). And ate at Denny's until I was stuffed.
I just feel gross. I am so afraid I am going to gain everything back that I lost and worked soo hard to achieve..just by making dumb decisions like this. I know that today's mishap won't make me gain my weight back..but if I keep it up I sure will.
I just need something to get my motivation back up. I have it in theory.. I mean, I want the results, and want to keep losing weight..but lately I haven't been wanting to work for it.
I kicked butt this summer..I worked out so hard, ate so good. Now I am back in school.. I have become lazy. I have 2 dance classes this semester, which are great workouts..but only twice a week. And they aren't that intense.
I need to workout more. I need to eat healthier. I need to lose at least 10 more pounds. I need more motivation. I need something....
I feel so great about how I look. I finally can go shopping and be happy because I fit into things I never dreamed I would have in my life.
But, if I love my body so much now.. why do I poison it with junk? Why do I abuse it through neglect? Why put it through this? I should cherish it.
Ugh. I am sure I will feel better tomorrow.. move on from my mistakes today..and get over this major speed bump.
I WILL make a change. I WILL lose the weight that I want to lose. I WILL.