It's Been A Long While....
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Well Spark Friends,
First, I would like to say hello to everyone!!! I have been at a standstill with my weight for the last 3 mths. Not really losing or gaining. I haven't been eating badly, just not the best. I just have not been hypervigilent like I was in past months. I think I just got complacent. Its almost a new year and I want to it bring it in with less of me there! (hehe)
I havenot been half using my tools that I learned here at SPARKPEOPLE. Definitely not been measuring my food or counting my calories and not working out as hard. I went into maintenance not meaning too.
But that changed this week. I have exercised everyday this week so far. Although I have not been counting calories, I have been measuring my food. I've lost about 2 lbs so far.
I never stopped going to my bootcamp class. I love it and I can tell how much stronger I have become. I am very proud of that.
I realize that I am still a little afraid of being successful losing this weight. It has comforted me or many years. I will not reach my goal by the end of the year. I am disappointed but not giving up. I know I deserve a better healthier body. Its babysteps and I have alot more to take. As I peel back every layer and discover food is not my friend nor my enemy, it is a d@mn hard realization.
I am an emotional eater and to deal with that everyday is hard. I am still trying to find new coping skills. Sometimes I will eat something and not realize it til I've swallowed it. It's crazy!
However, I can say that I am proud that I have not gained any weight during this standstill.
Better days are coming!!!!!! Just gotta keep taking those baby steps towards my goal!