Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Ok, well here's the deal.. life is busy!
I have gotten a new phone that has applications and I am hoping that it will help me to track more consistantly.
I have been on a bit of a roller coaster ride for the last few months. My personal life is kind of hard right now. I am afraid that my marriage might be ending. We are in therapy and I am in therapy for myself... but that doesn't change the daily suck that has been happening around here.
I have not been able to track well, but I do feel proud that I have only had a few days that I have chosen to pretend I didn't have control over what went into my piehole and eaten a half a bag of Doritos or two pieces of cake..... for the most part I have been eating well, and more often on the lighter side vs the too much side.
I have not lost any weight at all, but I also haven't gained either.
I also have NOT been exercising. I know that the excuses don't fly... but it is really hard to find the time and energy to exercise when you have a small baby! I exclusively breastfeed and feel like every second of the day I have a baby attached to me in some way... which makes it hard to feel like jumping up and down or getting on the treadmill when I have a rare moment to myself.
I know.. I know... I'm calling my own BS here... no more excuses. I have yet to be able to get a whole week tracked food wise... so I am going to try again. If I can track for two whole weeks I will focus on something else... but I really want to try and get into the habit of being accountable in a small way, and then try something a little harder. For now not being able to follow through on that small goal has ended up making me feel worse instead of better...
Soooo here I go again. I know that I can do this. I can do this.
And the truth is that maybe right now I have too much on my plate to really commit to turning everything around. So if I can just get back to tracking I know that it will give me a much needed boost!
and almost on cue there's the baby...
Wish me luck and any positive encouragement is welcomed folks! : )