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Tuesday, November 09, 2010

Not only did a lot of my regular peeps comment on my blog but I had three new people stop by with words of encouragement too. When I am struggling you always give me words of encouragement. I have been so stressed you wouldn't believe it and with sometime next week being the end of my job it has only added to it. I am having anxiety attacks that make it so I can't breathe. These are extra scary because of the blood clots that hospitalized me last year had the same feelings. I got checked just to be on the safe side awhile back but it is scary none the less.

I love my new apartment. I am officially settled in just a few remaining boxes and everything will be done. I can't figure out how to arrange my living room though. It has a few odd angles and this is making it hard to get it looking right. It has a really cozy feel to it and is so well insulated and has new windows that it is hard to get it cool enough in my room at night to sleep! Lol! At least I know my pud is going to be cheap.

I just feel so up in the air not knowing the exact day that will be my last. I know it will be sometime next week I just don't know when. I am going to have to apply for unemployment and I don't know how to do that because I have never been on it before. I know it can't be to hard but I would like to get things moving. I also need to find out if the programs they have that will help me get back to school are still going to be available. There was a story on the news the other night that our state is going to be cutting a lot of the programs currently available. So going back to school may not be an option after all. I hate this feeling of hurry up and wait! It makes it very hard to get my stress levels under control.

My children have been so wonderful. They help me get everything moved and are really working to get along and be helpful all at the same time. My son Derrick has taken to giving me random hugs throughout the day just because he knows I like hugs. I am a lucky mom I tell ya! Well that is about it for now. Again thanks for all the great words of encouragement. I take it all to heart and it gives me a reason to smile even when I am not feeling like smiling as often as I used to! I love you guys!
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    What a blessing your boys are. I hope you can get on a program that will allow you to go back to school. Keep us posted.

    2507 days ago
  • SUSANS111
    Not knowing is scary. Sometimes it helps to think of it as an adventure. I know it can take a little imagination, but with great kids like yours, they can probably help you out with that. When those feelings of stress start creeping in, start imagining the good places this adventure might take you, and then keep an eye out for the best direction to take at any moment.
    So glad you're back on the net!!!
    2509 days ago
    Your children are a real blessing. You raised them right.

    My mother-in-law used to say, "A door closes, but another one always opens up." I thought she was handing me a load of tripe, but, darn if she hasn't been proved right over the years! Thank goodness.

    So, keep an eye out for that opening door. And best wishes.

    2509 days ago
  • JEANNE0724
    isn't it great when the kids come thru, and the hugs are special gifts, so glad for you emoticon
    2509 days ago
    I'm so glad to hear from you - I must of missed a blog or two, so I have to go back and look now...did you get the internet issue figured out? I hope things work out for you!
    2509 days ago
    It has to be so difficult for you to wait with uncertainty. Good things are coming your way though. You deserve it. Just keep your chin up and know that we all love you too!

    2509 days ago
    I will keep you in prayer about your job and unemployment, Your kids sound great, but that is because... we look who raised them! When you have them, You have it all.

    2509 days ago
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