Tuesday, November 09, 2010
Not only did a lot of my regular peeps comment on my blog but I had three new people stop by with words of encouragement too. When I am struggling you always give me words of encouragement. I have been so stressed you wouldn't believe it and with sometime next week being the end of my job it has only added to it. I am having anxiety attacks that make it so I can't breathe. These are extra scary because of the blood clots that hospitalized me last year had the same feelings. I got checked just to be on the safe side awhile back but it is scary none the less.
I love my new apartment. I am officially settled in just a few remaining boxes and everything will be done. I can't figure out how to arrange my living room though. It has a few odd angles and this is making it hard to get it looking right. It has a really cozy feel to it and is so well insulated and has new windows that it is hard to get it cool enough in my room at night to sleep! Lol! At least I know my pud is going to be cheap.
I just feel so up in the air not knowing the exact day that will be my last. I know it will be sometime next week I just don't know when. I am going to have to apply for unemployment and I don't know how to do that because I have never been on it before. I know it can't be to hard but I would like to get things moving. I also need to find out if the programs they have that will help me get back to school are still going to be available. There was a story on the news the other night that our state is going to be cutting a lot of the programs currently available. So going back to school may not be an option after all. I hate this feeling of hurry up and wait! It makes it very hard to get my stress levels under control.
My children have been so wonderful. They help me get everything moved and are really working to get along and be helpful all at the same time. My son Derrick has taken to giving me random hugs throughout the day just because he knows I like hugs. I am a lucky mom I tell ya! Well that is about it for now. Again thanks for all the great words of encouragement. I take it all to heart and it gives me a reason to smile even when I am not feeling like smiling as often as I used to! I love you guys!