Tuesday, November 09, 2010
I haven't blogged in forever. I've been so busy at work and just not motivated at all. The past month and a half I haven't been scrutinizing my food intake like I was and I've been slightly more lax in my exercise. Oddly enough, I haven't gained a pound. I don't know what it is, but I guess I'm just stuck at this weight. I'm sure my weight will go up a bit soon due to my son's Halloween candy. I begged my husband to take it to work.....no dice. So we've both been snacking on it.
Still no luck trying to conceive. But my hubby is thinking we should maybe stop since weíre switching daycare. I think itís heís punishing me because heís not getting his way. Right now his mother watches our son and she drives me crazy. She lets him play with anything he can get his hands on, safe or unsafe. Some things include a can opener, my husbandís magazine collection, headphones, bottles and cans he pulls from the recycling bucket, etc. She also leaves messes and doesnít clean them up. Read my prior blogs for more of the gory details about her and her personal habits. I donít want to hate her, but Iím starting to have a deep resentment toward her and its not getting any better. So weíre going with a woman who does home daycare from her home. My husband was supposed to tell her a month ago to start looking, but he didnít. Now heís trying to delay it because he doesnít want her to be out of work. Iím not going to budge on it at all, though. He doesnít listen to me about anything and Iím putting my foot down. Bottom line is that itís for safety and better for my son. If it means weíre pushing off having another child, oh well. Sorry for the rant, but I needed to get it off my chest.
Things arenít the greatest right now at work. There were layoffs recently so my boss has been working harder to keep in good favor of the firm. Things have been ridiculously busy. I have barely been able to keep on top of things. Plus, Iím worried that I may at some point in the future lose my job. I love working here, and I donít want to lose my job. Its been a worry of mine for the past few months.
Iím guessing that these frustrations are killing my motivation to do what I should. I still choose the better options for the most part, but I just donít do it as vigilantly as I did before. I donít get much of a workout in anymore. I tried so many times to get up early to work out and I hit snooze instead. I need to find motivation somewhere because the holidays are coming up and I donít want to gorge myself and hate the way I look come New Years.