Monday, November 08, 2010
Not only have I fallen off the wagon but I sat on my ass watching it disappear over the horizon while stuffing my face! I didn't even make an attempt to get back on. Today was my wake up call I found my scale and got on it to discover that in the past couple of weeks I have put on 20lbs! Even my comfy jeans are no longer comfy! I could tell that it was happening and I just continued to let it. This really illustrates just how much of a stress eater I am. So I sat down and planned my food menu in full for the next entire week! Breakfast, lunch and dinner even my snacks. I am not going to use this as an excuse to give up completely. I realize now how much this website means to my continued weight loss or even just helping me to maintain during times of stress. My ex-husband has offered to install internet for us at our new place so that the boys and I will have internet and I am going to take him up on that offer.
It is so important to have a support system and this has been mine. I need all of you guys and that means I need internet. So here is another start. I am not ready to quite. I know I have it in me to succeed. I will eventually make it. I can do this. I need to save myself. So no beating myself up. No calling myself names. No treating myself in a way I wouldn't treat others. Clean slate back to the battle of the bulge! It may have won the last skirmish but I will be damned if I let it win the war!