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Falling off the wagon...

Monday, November 08, 2010

Not only have I fallen off the wagon but I sat on my ass watching it disappear over the horizon while stuffing my face! I didn't even make an attempt to get back on. Today was my wake up call I found my scale and got on it to discover that in the past couple of weeks I have put on 20lbs! Even my comfy jeans are no longer comfy! I could tell that it was happening and I just continued to let it. This really illustrates just how much of a stress eater I am. So I sat down and planned my food menu in full for the next entire week! Breakfast, lunch and dinner even my snacks. I am not going to use this as an excuse to give up completely. I realize now how much this website means to my continued weight loss or even just helping me to maintain during times of stress. My ex-husband has offered to install internet for us at our new place so that the boys and I will have internet and I am going to take him up on that offer.

It is so important to have a support system and this has been mine. I need all of you guys and that means I need internet. So here is another start. I am not ready to quite. I know I have it in me to succeed. I will eventually make it. I can do this. I need to save myself. So no beating myself up. No calling myself names. No treating myself in a way I wouldn't treat others. Clean slate back to the battle of the bulge! It may have won the last skirmish but I will be damned if I let it win the war!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
SHIPESTA 11/9/2010 1:54PM

    I knew I must of missed one - One little step at a time laura - you can do this. Have faith in yourself and trust in the fact that you are capable.

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PEGTIGER 11/9/2010 5:38AM

    I am so glad you will be getting internet. I missed your blogs. They are always right on for me and such an inspiration. Congrats for picking yourself up and getting back on the horse!

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SUSANS111 11/8/2010 11:01PM

    So good to read your post today! Yeah! I'm glad you will get the internet again. I've missed reading your blogs over the last week. Sounds like you've got that wagon by the reigns and are ready to drive it where you need to go! I know you can do it. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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TWYLA053 11/8/2010 9:09PM

    We've been missing you!!!

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    You have taken the most important step you can, you climbed back on. I am so glad you did not decide to quit. You can do this!

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KIMBERTA99 11/8/2010 5:22PM

    Hi...I was just thinking about you the other day...wondering how you were doing!! We all have out times when we get out of control and just kinda take a break....the important thing is that you are not giving up and are taking control. Planning your meals is an awesome dont have to think aobut what you are going to eat, it is already planned out. Use us..we are here to cheer you on all the way til you reach your goal!! Kim

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BRENDABUNNY 11/8/2010 4:56PM

    glad your back i think we all fall off i sure know i have and am struggling with it emoticon

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CHOOSE2LOSE2014 11/8/2010 4:47PM

    I too fell of the wagon and I got back on 2 weeks ago... You can do it....

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MAKULEWAHINE 11/8/2010 3:38PM

    I love your attitude. It is the nature of life that we have ups and downs, sometimes big ones. But success is when you get back up and start again. We are never starting at the same point as before because we have learned something from the process. My mantra for today was "recommittment to my health." How about that for coincidence? I was just wondering about you today also and am glad to see you back:)

You will succeed as long as you keep that awesome determination!!

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JOYINKY 11/8/2010 2:42PM

    Glad you're back. You know what to do! emoticon

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MIKEL1999 11/8/2010 2:21PM

    Writing it down and admitting it is the first step, Congrats!!
I'm also an emotional eater. I have only dedicated myself to SP for almost 5 weeks now. It has changed my life and I think once you have access to internet whenever you need it, you will be able to log ALL your nutrition and blog and get the support you need.

WE WILL DO THIS emoticon

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OFFDREA 11/8/2010 2:10PM

    You are back on the wagon and that is all that matters now! Good luck!

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LETTYPHALL 11/8/2010 2:05PM

  I hear what you're saying. I've also experienced the same thing, and I hate myself for my defeats also. Like you, I am now trying. It is like fighting a war and who will win this war. Well, I know the answer. It is you and me because we will make up our minds to do the right thing and make healthier decision. Make everyday a winning day. Each temptation you refuse will refuel your power.

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KENCHRIS401 11/8/2010 2:01PM

    I am in the same position as you also. I have been MIA for about 2 months now, and decided that today was the day i was going to get myself back on the wagon, no more excuses.

It is so true, sparking is a great source of support which is essential in our journey. I know we can do this and we will!!!

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CHOPOLA 11/8/2010 1:58PM

    I'm in the same boat as you I just wrote a blog about it yesterday. Let's pick ourselves back up and get back on the wagon!

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