Friday, November 05, 2010
Yesterday I did a slightly better job of staying on track, the most outrageous thing I had was a pepsi throwback (god, those things are good!).
I also wrote out an eating plan for the rest of the week, and I plan to stick to it. My challenge will be that I have a little mini-vacation (I like to take days off in November for my writing, and they happened to blend into a weekend and Labor Day so I get a 6 day vacation, yay me!) and I tend to get carried away.
I'm frustrated at the moment by a friend who was rather sarcastic when I told him I couldn't come to his wife's birthday party because we can't afford to go out to a restaurant this weekend. We are really broke (as in had to borrow some money to make rent) and I can't afford $50 for an evening out, and that's before you count the babysitting.
I wish that my friends would at least make an effort to understand that not only do I make a lot less money than them, I have more bills and kids to deal with too. Daycare is seriously expensive. I can't just run off to dinner on a whim. Not only did they send the invite last minute, but they know that we don't just have money laying around. Believe me, I would LOVE to have a nice evening out with friends. I really would. It sounds wonderful. Not to mention that the wife in question is my awesome friend who took us to Pt Townsend last month. And I have been paying her back, on time, as scheduled and agreed ahead of time. So it's not like I'm sitting here mooching off them.
Anyway, it was really hurtful and it was from someone who I thought understood. I'm just tired of feeling like such a damn pariah.
On the plus side, I won't be tempted by yummy Italian food this weekend. Sigh.