Wednesday, November 03, 2010
I am half way in my weight loss journey of recovery and I notice some changes inside and out.
On the outside, I am getting smaller. I am working my way along the row of clothes sized 16 to 6 in my packed closet. As items become too big, I set them aside to give away. Some pieces that represented the fat, ashamed, isolated part of me were given up gladly. Good riddance. I am free. Other pieces that made me feel normal were given up with reluctance and gratitude for their good service. The black suit jacket that I could not button up at one time became the sloppy jacket that I had to keep buttoned up to keep it hanging straight. It was time to pass it on to help someone else in her journey of recovery.
It is exciting to welcome back smaller clothes that I have not been able to wear for many years. (I remember this. I wore it to ....) It is like a happy reunion.
I am changing on the inside, too. I notice that I have a greater sense of empowerment. I feel grounded and I am reaching out to friends and internet tools for support. I am making conscious choices every hour of the day that are consistent with a recovered lifestyle. No longer do I ask that clothes merely cover me up. They need to fit well and look good.
I feel that I am passing through a portal leading to healthy recovery. I am looking forward to the final half of the weight loss journey and to healthy maintenance beyond.