Happy November! Welcome Fall! Everything looks and smells oh so good. I love this time of year...chimneys already putting out some good smelling smoke to the air. It's not too cold yet; infact, except for a few showers, it has been rather balmy here where I live.
Good sleeping weather
Yesterday when I changed the bedding, I added a blanket so that I can leave my window open a little and still be warm. I hate the winter season, but I think I am ready to become a hermit when it does get here.
One thing about this time of year---I find myself craving all the yummy smells and tastes of the season. The pumpkins, squashes, spices. I have learned to make my own cranberry sauce (using no sugar); this season I trying to do healthier versions of what I like most. The apples in season are so good. I have also learned to make my own applesauce using no sugar. I want to learn to make bigger batches of them and then put them in jars or small freezer containers for later use. I used to make some awesome pumpkin bread--every year. But have not since having diabetes. Now I am craving it--want to find a low sugar/low fat version. And, I am absolutely CRAVING a good apple dumpling! It has been 10 years since I have had a warm apple dumpling---YUMMO!
Next Monday, I will begin a series of diabetes education classes--4 sessions. I went to one years ago, but definitely need to go again. Maybe I can better understand HOW to plan and shop for healthy BS control along with weight loss. I am also going to begin some physical therapy for my legs. Maybe that will help me to "save" the muscle that is left in my legs. Going for a walk is so painful, even with a walker. I definitely have to push myself--I mean force myself to go. Then when I do, for the next day or so, my feet and legs end up with cramps DURING THE NIGHT!. But I need to walk. I need the exercise. I must USE IT or LOSE IT (mobility, I mean).
I HATE getting and feeling old. Every time I go to a doctor, for any reason, whatever is going on with me, "it's age related". That really gets to my depression issues. I am tired of looking in the mirror and seeing a tired old lady looking back. I am tired of not having energy. I am tired of being the BORING grandma--I want to be a FUN grandma who is able to play with my grandkids like I used to do.
But then I am forever GRATEFUL for all of my many Blessings...HOPE in my heart, a Prayer of THANKS for a roof over my head, for my Loving Family, for my wonderful Spiritual Family, and for everyday that I can wake up and try again. And I am most Grateful to my Heavenly Provider from whom all of these rich blessings come.
I am not sure when I will get back to my blog again, but for today, I say Hello to all my Friends, and Family; and send good tidings for a Happy November.