Tuesday, November 02, 2010
October was a sad time for me. I lost my seventeen and a half year old bichon. I also found out that I need a surgical revision of my total knee. Of course there were and still are tears over my dog Hoovie. I miss him so much, and I am not happy that I am having this surgery. I will not be able to lose weight or even exercise for quite a while. I do know that this is life and there are going to be better days ahead. I think this kind of attitude can spill into my everyday life. I used to think that weight loss was all or none. I constantly beat myself up over my weight, and if I went off my " diet" it was over. I know now that the best way to lose weight is to love myself, then forgive myself, for how my body looks and what I have done to it and my knee by my weight gain. I now treat weight loss as a lifestyle, not as a diet. Sometimes I allow myself to have a treat. If I slip up, I don't blame myself and I get back to eating healthy. So far I have been able to lose thirty pounds and my weight is now below 200. I had created a mental roadblock that I would never get below 200 pounds again. Funny how those mental roadblocks can be broken down by being positive, forgiving, and telling yourself "I can," then doing it.