Monday, November 01, 2010
Sigh... I LOVE Halloween. It is my favorite of all holidays, but this year was different. I didn't dress up, I didn't decorate, I didn't even carve pumpkins. I just couldn't get it together this Halloween. I tried. I went to all of the costume stores. I looked at tons of costumes on line..... I just was not feeling it. For the very first time Halloween made me feel fat and old. The costumes are so itty bitty. Don't get me wrong, they looked fantastic on the models, but picturing myself in these tiny triangular pieces of sheer cloth made my stomach turn. Granted, its not a huge shocker that I'm not 5'7 and 120lbs. I've never been small. After years of beating myself up for not being barbie on crack I finally came to terms with who I am and what is "the beauty of Michele" and her body....and then......I GOT OLD TOO!!! What the hell! Whew... yes, this Halloween has been a blow to my self esteem, but on the bright side it did become another motivation for me. Now if I could just get my body to cooperate with getting back into my old exercise routine!