Monday, November 01, 2010
In Oct I was thrilled-I hit a milestone of losing 50 lbs-I was so excited! But weirdly enough-it seemed like something switched off on my motivation. I felt it, I realized it-but I couldn't figure out how to flip that switch back on. I was also unable to work out for a week because I was sick, but that didn't feel like the reason for this at all. Just feels like that vision I had in my head of what each day would bring is now somehow behind a gauze curtain. It is there, but very fuzzy &difficult to see.
After I got on the scale this AM for my 1st of month check in-I need to do some SERIOUS reflecting and figure out how to rip this curtain down. I am up 1/2 pound from the month of Sept-I gain 5 lbs in Sept! I have been slowly but steadily losing each month, and now I have done this & gone backwards.
No beating myself up, what happened-happened and I need to focus on today & tomorrow only. End of Nov-I'll be back to -50 and with hard work- bring some of it's little chubby friends along-shooting for -53 by Nov 30th!