My status today lets you know that I am working on a resume.
I have been working in a job that has become all consuming. I was "stuck" and saw no way out. I am gaining weight every week partly because the bulk of my waking time is spent sitting in a chair in front of a computer. Yes, this was my choice but NOT ANYMORE~
I work in a small office of three people. We are all of the same job description. There is one person that is compelled to control EVERYTHING. She insists on contacting and calling me on the days that I do not work. She "snips" at me every chance that she gets and constantly monitors where I am working and what I am doing. The three of us had a meeting with our management team. This meeting was LONG overdue. She wound up yelling at me "you are a liar, you are a liar" over and over again. No one stopped her. No one said "you are in a place of business and you cannot speak to someone that way". She has done so may other horrible things because of her control issues I cannot list them all.
Since I am growing up and getting a spine, I decided that I am actually the one that is choosing to remain in a workplace where I have a co worker harass me. I now have come to the realization that this person is not going to change. Instead of being angry about her or the situation, I feel terribly sorry for her. I believe that she is actually mentally ill and I hope that someday she will find the help and peace of mind that will allow her to have a happier life.
No more about her.
I have applied for a different job in the same corporation which currently employs me. I may be overly optimistic but I have a good feeling about this. I feel that this is what I am supposed to be doing.
I have also accepted that I may have to leave the corporation and get a different job with another employer. I have all the information for a resume, just need to get it together and give it that professional look.
I had a great deal of fear about leaving a "secure" position for the unknown in these difficult economic times. I started to feel guilty, there are some that have no job or have been laid off.
The fear is gone, the guilt is gone.
I am a person of worth. I cannot control other people. I am in charge of only one person- me. I have a choice to remain with the known out of guilt, sense of duty, or fear OR I can grow up, get a backbone, and search for the life that I am supposed to have. I don't believe that people are on this earth to remain stagnant, we are supposed to change and grow, to find ways to serve and care for others but also honor ourselves.
Honor yourself today by doing something "out of character" or just do one thing that you have wanted to do but been afraid to try.....join me in a journey to have the life you truly deserve! You're important!