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I finally grew up and got some self esteem

Friday, October 29, 2010

My status today lets you know that I am working on a resume.
I have been working in a job that has become all consuming. I was "stuck" and saw no way out. I am gaining weight every week partly because the bulk of my waking time is spent sitting in a chair in front of a computer. Yes, this was my choice but NOT ANYMORE~
I work in a small office of three people. We are all of the same job description. There is one person that is compelled to control EVERYTHING. She insists on contacting and calling me on the days that I do not work. She "snips" at me every chance that she gets and constantly monitors where I am working and what I am doing. The three of us had a meeting with our management team. This meeting was LONG overdue. She wound up yelling at me "you are a liar, you are a liar" over and over again. No one stopped her. No one said "you are in a place of business and you cannot speak to someone that way". She has done so may other horrible things because of her control issues I cannot list them all.
Since I am growing up and getting a spine, I decided that I am actually the one that is choosing to remain in a workplace where I have a co worker harass me. I now have come to the realization that this person is not going to change. Instead of being angry about her or the situation, I feel terribly sorry for her. I believe that she is actually mentally ill and I hope that someday she will find the help and peace of mind that will allow her to have a happier life.
No more about her.
I have applied for a different job in the same corporation which currently employs me. I may be overly optimistic but I have a good feeling about this. I feel that this is what I am supposed to be doing.
I have also accepted that I may have to leave the corporation and get a different job with another employer. I have all the information for a resume, just need to get it together and give it that professional look.
I had a great deal of fear about leaving a "secure" position for the unknown in these difficult economic times. I started to feel guilty, there are some that have no job or have been laid off.
The fear is gone, the guilt is gone.
I am a person of worth. I cannot control other people. I am in charge of only one person- me. I have a choice to remain with the known out of guilt, sense of duty, or fear OR I can grow up, get a backbone, and search for the life that I am supposed to have. I don't believe that people are on this earth to remain stagnant, we are supposed to change and grow, to find ways to serve and care for others but also honor ourselves.
Honor yourself today by doing something "out of character" or just do one thing that you have wanted to do but been afraid to try.....join me in a journey to have the life you truly deserve! You're important!

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    good for you! NO one needs to be treated that way. Hope the other offer comes through for you.. emoticon
    2672 days ago
    I just found this and I have to tell you that I am SO PROUD of you! You don't have to work with and subject yourself day in and day out to a toxic person. Often times, given enough rope, they hang themselves but you are wise to move on and not wait for that to happen!
    2678 days ago
    Good for you. No one deserves to be treated that way. Hope you find something quickly and better!!
    2696 days ago
    Hurray for you!!!!
    2700 days ago
    We have someone like that in my office too. Unfortunately she is 2nd in command, but the company owner finally seems to be realizing that she can be replaced. I got very close to leaving this year, but I am starting to see some light at the end of the tunnel. At the same time, my resume is updated and ready to go in case things don't keep improving.
    2700 days ago
    Good for you! I, too, worked with a woman like the one you work with. I found another job and left that lovely person to stew in her own juices. I was much healthier after I left!!!
    2701 days ago
    Good for you! I have had jobs where I cried everyday before my shift. You deserve better and you are gonna go get it. Again good for you!
    2701 days ago
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