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3.1 Miles - A Conversation With Myself

Friday, October 29, 2010

Alarm clock. Beeping. This is the day. Today I'm going to do it. Jesus, it's cold! Woo - like SERIOUSLY cold. Turn the heat on. Bathroom. Wake up. Breathe. Wake up. Breathe. Pet the cat - morning buddy. I'm doing this. I'm going to run. Yoga pants, sports bra, tech shirt, banana, water. Back to the bathroom. Nervous pee. Damn, it is so frickin cold! Socks, shoes, stretch. iPod. Outside - I can see my breath. Breathe. Good. Tuesday was too hot. I like running in the cold. I like that I can see my breath. Hello winter. Out into the world. Cross the street, turn on my tunes. New running mix - awesome. Walk, walk, have to warm up. "We will not be broken, we will be victorious" love Muse. Great warm-up song. Puts me in the right frame of mind. Here we go. Blur - Song 2. WOOHOO! RUN! Breathe, relax your shoulders, warm up the legs. Turn the corner, run through leaves. It's interesting how the wind pools them all like that. REALLY cold. Hello fox lawn ornament. Am I already there? Slow down, pace, pace. About 5 minutes in. How do I feel? Breathing is good. Relax the shoulders. Turn the corner. Sun is shining, starting to warm up now. Sun light through the park fence. It's like a strobe light as I run by. Turn the corner. Long stretch before the one mile marker. "Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger" thanks Kanye. Feeling good. Relax the shoulders. Legs are ok. Breathe deep, imagine any discomfort pushing down through the legs and out through the feet. Settle in. Breathe. One mile. Turn the corner. I hate this stretch. But it's not long - just push through it. Turn the corner. Long haul to Western. You've got this. You feel good. Better than you usually feel at this point. "We've only got 4 minutes to save the world". Do it. Easy does it to Western. Past the school. You used to be dying at this point. Look how amazing you're doing right now. Easy does it to Western. Turn the corner. One block. One more corner. OK - this is the rough patch. You're doing great. Gotta make it back to Hoyne. Damn Hoyne. I hate that street - it's SO far away. Two miles. I've got one left in me for sure. Pace, pace. Just go easy. "So, so what? I'm still a rockstar!" thanks P!NK - you're getting me through this. Only 3 more songs and you're done. One more block - HOYNE! Hallelujah. Turn the corner, one block - hello big doggie and cute owner - yum. Smile, wave...turn the corner, more leaves. Back to Western. This is where C25K training ended. And I'm going the distance this time. I'm doing the WHOLE thing. Pace, pace. Slow down. This isn't a race...well, it IS a race, but not today. Today is about doing it. Coming up on Western now. Still feel good. Not really out of breath. 2.5 miles. Turn the corner. Run home. You got this. Grocery store to home. You can walk that in, like, 4 minutes. Running it is easy. Not thinking about my legs anymore. Settle in. Feet are great. Breathe. Pace, pace. Not cold anymore. Sun is shining. HELL YES I am doing this. I got it. Past home - now it's just about the finish line. Don't speed. Just make it there. 3 blocks. "It makes me that much stronger, thanks for makin' me a Fighter" - bring it home Christina. Just have to run to the end of this song. I can see the last block. I can still see my breath. Finish line! I DID IT!!!

At this point, all by myself on an empty street, I pumped my fist in the air and broke into tears, steam pouring off my body. The feeling of accomplishment and fatigue came over me and I could hardly catch my breath for the sobs escaping my lungs. I slowed to a walk for my favorite cool down songs and just let the tears come. I did it. For weeks I have been so scared that I wouldn't make it to the distance before my race next weekend. I was suffering from negative self-speak, telling myself that I couldn't do it. But - today I did. And now there's nothing left to tell me I can't, because I know I can. I'm still nervous about the race, but today I proved to myself that I can do whatever I want to. I finished with a good stretch and a hot shower. I am beautiful. I am a runner. Bring on next weekend. I can't wait to meet all my SparkFriends and run for chocolate in downtown Chicago!

Official Stats from today:

5 kilometres

Here's my route (Yep - it's a 5...I'm a geek)

If I can bring it in under 40 minutes next weekend, I'll be ecstatic! I am so proud of what I can do. Never in a million years did I ever think that I would be capable of running 3.1 miles in under 40 minutes. And now that I'm here, it's on to the next hurdle - running a 10K for the start of next year's race season.

Well - just get through the 5K first, Jenn :)

You got it!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
KRAWRS 11/2/2010 3:44PM

    You ARE a superstar! Wow! Go you!

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WYND10 11/2/2010 1:39PM

    Woohoo!!!! You're a superstar.

My blog notification is failing me. You've put up two since last I got a notification. OMG!

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LOTUSFLOWER 10/31/2010 3:45PM

    You rock!!!!

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MRSSIBRAT 10/31/2010 7:04AM

    so amazing girl!!

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MMS354 10/30/2010 8:06PM

    Yeah! Great job!! All the energy at your race will give you a huge push and your time will astound you. Woo hoo!

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SASSYSUNFLOWER 10/30/2010 9:50AM

    This is an amazing blog, made me teary eyed. Congratulations on your run! I haven't started exercising yet, I need to! I loved the way you took us through the whole run. emoticon

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GRANDMABEAST63 10/30/2010 5:16AM

    Woohoo, great playlist way to go ! You are going to rock your 5K, happy running....oh, and you are a RUNNER !

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CALLIKIA 10/30/2010 12:09AM

    So awesome!! You're gonna rock that race!

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MEADSBAY 10/29/2010 8:48PM

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Loved (and liked) this blog!

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ESTEPHENSON2 10/29/2010 6:43PM

    Great blog. Great accomplishment. Great Playlist! :)

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KT-NICHOLS-13 10/29/2010 6:35PM

    We shall call you "speedy!" You are amazing and inspiring ...
You're going to do fabulous on race day!!

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JMEPAYNE 10/29/2010 5:44PM

    WOOOHOOOO!!!! what a great accomplishment!!!

congrats girl! you're going to rock that 5k next weekend!

p.s. i used to live off the california blue line stop, not too far from where you are!

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CSDOWNING 10/29/2010 5:32PM

    You go, girl! I'm so proud for you!!!

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SWEETPEACHY 10/29/2010 4:50PM

    I don't even know you and that brought tears to my eyes. I feel proud of you, ins't that odd? To feel proud of someone you dont even know? Congradulations!

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LAURIETAIT 10/29/2010 4:45PM

    emoticon I have the same goals. I want to run 5k and work up to 10k by June 2011. I really enjoyed your blog. I've had some difficulties since W8D2 and it's great to see someone else succeeding. I hope you have a great race! I'll be thinking of you.

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KARVY09 10/29/2010 4:22PM

    Song 2 and So What are on my playlist too...

You are a super star. What an accomplishment! I remember when you were struggling through W3 of C25K. Look at you now. 5K in under 40 minutes.

Amazing. Simply amazing.


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