Jangling, Clutter, and Getting Back to My Self
Thursday, October 28, 2010
October 28, 2010 - wee hours of the morning …
Everything is jangly. My clutter, worry about finance/future, having tv on all the time, violent tv shows, doing three things at once, inability to focus on one thing …
Must unjangle. Must un-clutter. Must clear space and mind. Music. Organization. No candy.
EVERY DAY sit down with journal or tarot and have quiet time with self.
Eating too many grains. Not enough fruits, veggies, nuts and seeds.
A few hours later ...
Chose to do a morning draw with my brand new tarot deck. Hoping to clear my mind of this clutter …
Sun and Moon Tarot
5 of pents. Well, this about covers it. I was up until 5:30 this morning worrying, and "worry" is the key word on the card. It looks like two kids abandoned on a street corner. One sleeping, or crying, or sick. One watching out. I'm a sea of worry these days, and am distracting myself with tv, puzzles, procrastination on what I really need to do to take care of myself.
I drew a second card to ask what this worry can teach me.
4 of cups. Keyword is "luxury" which didn't resonate for me. But after looking at the image awhile I feel that she is about what I'm doing here with tarot. It pictures a woman sitting on a lotus flower under a full moon, and the colors are all cool aqua and white. She holds three cups in her hand and a full one is falling towards her. She looks contemplative, inward, and beautiful. My path, my learning, is to get back to my inner work. To meditate, do tarot, dream. To stop with all the jangly go-go-go, and distractions. To spend quality time with myself instead of distancing myself from my feelings.
What a lovely card!!!