Thursday, October 28, 2010
Weight: 184 lbs
Neck: 13.5 (down 0.5)
Upper Arm: 12.5
Waist: 34 (down 0.5)
Rib Cage: 32
Not much has changed since last week and I'm not surprised; I've been busy, thus neglecting my daily exercise. I'm down one inch, but I believe the only reason I haven't gained or lost weight is due to high levels of stress (not getting much sleep & food isn't very appealing). I've maintained my 10 daily glasses of water, but my body is probably in starvation mode right now.
I went to my first counseling session this week and have committed to weekly sessions; I'm still shopping for medical insurance (for my girls--the VA provides mine) and I'm amazed by the expense. I applied for assistance via the state, but was denied due to income requirements; the VA has previously denied my claim (for dependant insurance), so I'm left wondering where's the assistance I've always heard about (for a single mother)?
I'm meeting with a divorce attorney on Friday to discuss my case; he's one of the few I've found (who can provide for all my needs) willing to accept a payment plan and to offer a free consultation (with a retainer fee of $2,500.00). The price of a divorce is shocking, but what's a girl to do? The last six months have been a lie (my husband was never in school--he's established a new life with another woman) and his exact whereabouts are unknown (although my instincts tell me he's in Georgia).
This could potentially complicate matters, but my main concern is my daughters. How any "man" could be so deceptive or abandon their children is beyond me, but that's his loss...not mine. My daughters are my world and its my responsibility (as a mother) to provide for them, whether their father decides to or not. I'm a strong woman and no matter what's thrown my way, I believe (with God's help) I'll be able to overcome it. I've never claimed to be perfect, but my girls know their momma loves them unconditionally and is here to stay= )
I'd like to thank everyone for their advice, support and other various comments. Its comforting to know my SP family is there when I need them! Perhaps some may find this odd, but Sparking is my outlet: a healthy way to give and receive support. Everyone has a different opinion as to how one should deal with their emotions--please don't criticise mine. My Spark time doesn't interfere with my ability to parent, nor does it prevent me from being able to complete daily tasks.
Sending ((((Positive and Skinny Vibes)))),