Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Well, I had the worst weekend of my life....
My husband and I might be splitting up ... we're in the "lets take a few days to think about it before we make a huge decision" mode....
and wow, it sucks. Now, we haven't had a great relationship for quite some time; we go in cycles where we are on and then off, then on, off, etc.. its a very unhealthy cycle. I recognize it. However, I do love him.... but I am not sure if I am in love with him... if that makes any sense.
I sobbed and sobbed for like 14 hours yesterday... and today, I am kind of in a fog. I know I am strong and either way I will get through this - it just plain stinks for lack of a better word.
He's a great guy..... handsome, fun, caring and loving... he just has a mean/angry streak and it gets worse when he drinks. I also have some issues in my closet where I dont tolerate being corrected (he does it in a way like I am a child).
He wont go to counseling... Ive asked. So, I am at a standstill... with just my thoughts.... and I dont know what to do... So what better thing to do - then post it and get it out..