Tuesday, October 26, 2010
On so many levels right now. The fact that this is my PMS week is not helping matters any either. But I just want to throw in the towel, crawl under a rock and die! I am feeling so alone anymore, feeling so stacked with seemingly unreachable tasks. I'm tired. I want to be able to just be for awhile. Not to have to constantly battle, worry, struggle. I hate this time of year too. Having no family makes things rough. I think I may just skip Thanksgiving all together, I don' t have the strength in me to do it. I am soooo tired!! Every little thing is making me cry anymore.
I am tired of "explaining" to "friends" why I am pulling my 10 year old son out of public school to cyber school him because he has been dealing with 3 years of physical and mental bullying. My "friends" are all telling me all I am teaching him is to cop out!! WTH?!? You deal with the most loving, kind hearted kid you'll ever know that is constantly ostracized, picked on and beat up and the tell me different. I am so tired.
I need help right now, I don't know what but I feel like I am drowning in all that's around me. I want my mommy so badly right now. Oh God, it just hurts so bad. I am just praying that by the end of the week I am more normal. Because I can' t go on like this!
Hope everyone else is having a good day!