Saturday, October 23, 2010
Here I am trying again to make some adjustments and changes in my life, wondering is it for naught? Why can I not get it? Is something wrong with me that I don't realize I am digging my grave with a fork? Why did my doctor have to send me a appt in the mail to see the nutritionist? Maybe because we've had this discussion before and she didn't want to keep saying what I already knew. Or maybe she went over my chart and saw that I was 240 in February and now I'm 288. In January I was 232. When will it stop!? In 9 months I have gained 56 pounds. Isn't that terrible/sad? My weight has started to affect my liver. I go to see the liver DR on Wednesday to start medication. Will this be the straw that broke the camels back? I don't know but I am hoping and praying it so.