Saturday, October 23, 2010
a couple of weeks ago, but I seem to be creeping back that way again
I've had an off week or two bc of PMS issues lol, but I think I'm back on track again. At least, I'm trying. I looked at the leader boards for the Losing Big competition and the top 25 have all lost 25+ pounds and the person in first place has lost 50!! We've been doing this for 9 weeks now and I'm barely hanging in at the 10lb mark
hopefully this week will be better and my weigh in next Wednesday will be much better. i really want to lose weight and am happy about it, but it seems like there are just those days where I can't seem to find the motivation and I lose sight of my goals. Then I just kinda break down and cry bc it seems like I'll never be able to do it. I never went into this thinking it was going to be easy. it's hard as hell and some days I just want to give in and say, "forget it! I'm not doing it anymore! I've always been fat, so I'll always be fat. I might as well just own up to it."
Then the next day I'm the total opposite, thinking "I can do this. I know I can. I just need to work hard and break my bad habits." I want to see my little butterfly flutter across the football field.
it's exhausting, really.