Thursday, October 21, 2010
OK. I am starting over. Again. For the hundredth time. But I have to start somewhere, so over again will have to do. I am back to the 230ish that my body seems to want to be. I don't want to be that. I would like to be 180ish. That is my goal. Not only that, I would like to be 180ish by my next birthday. I just turned 49. So basically I want to lose 50 lbs by 50 years old.
Fifty by fifty. Can I do it? I have tried to go below 200lbs may times in the past 10 years with no success. I got close, but never went under. Getting older is harder than I thought it would be. In my 20's and 30's I could lose weight with ease, but now it is a constant struggle, and if I slip the weight FLIES back on. But the thought of being fat into the next decade scares me. I want to decrease my risks for all the obesity related diseases. I want to be a size 14, or dare I say, 12 again. I want to look and feel sexy again.
I have started tracking my nutrition and fitness, and I am going to try hard to do it faithfully every day. I am also trying to exercise daily... that is one thing I am bad about. I could probably write a book on dieting and nutrition, I am good gauging portion sizes, and I know how to cook and eat healthy. I don't always do what I should, but I am aware of that, and that helps in the battle. However I am somewhat lacking in knowledge when it comes to exercise, and lacking even more in the motivation department. I do not know how long a mile or km is , so when I walk or hike I am clueless on how far I have gone. I don't know how long or hard I have to exercise to burn calories, I only know it seems like the effort put in to it hardly seems worth it. I HATE to sweat, always have. I hate feeling hot, and feeling wetness drip down my face, neck, etc. grosses me out. So exercising is a real challenge for me. But I am trying to overcome all my obstacles and dump my bad habits for healthy ones. I want to feel better, not just look better, and they say exercising is the key, so I am taking up the gauntlet, and excepting the challenge. To be a better me I need to work hard and stay committed, and that's what I intend to do. Wish me luck!