Wednesday, October 20, 2010
thigh- 31 in.
So this is where I am, this is me being completely honest, not just with you the reader but with my self. Am I disappointed yes, am I feeling a little down yes. You ask why did I not put up my weight. Well for starters I weigh myself on the wii fit, and I dropped off the wagon about 3 weeks ago when I lost my job. So I am scaired, if you want me to be transparent.
All I know is when I look into the mirror I do not see myself anymore. I do not see the person I use to be. I feel lost. December is my 2 year anniversary and I do not feel I am the person that I was when I got married. My marriage is great, its just me I have let go. My husband is wonderful he supports me no matter what. But the thing is I am not good at supporting myself.
Today I am saddened. I look into the mirror and do not recognize myself and also we have been trying to get pregnant for the past 7 months and it still has not happened. My heart is heavy tonight.
If your reading this I apologize for be a distressed. I just needed to get all of this off my chest. I could not hold on to it any longer. So thank you if you read this.