Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Ok so were do I start. Oh I know I hate being fat and not active. All I want to do is sleep, watch tv and facebook. Not much of a life right. Now don't get me wrong I'm truly blessed.. But my social life consist of eating out once a month with my ladies group, Church on Wed. and Sunday. Other than that that's all I want to do.. Why is it that everything is surrounded by food.. So I stay at home and then there's still food. I don't want to run a marathon I just want to rest at night or go a day with out reflux. I even get it if I don't eat. My appetite is terrible. I don't like breakfast and has never liked breakfast even when I was a 9/10. I just want my coffee.. And then lunch about 2 0r 3 pm. and dinner around 7pm when my husband come in from work. I'm not a big junk food person and I don't eat a lot of sweets and breads.. Oh and by the way I take Lexapro. My mother was murdered in 1999 and I've been on it every since. It affects my weight, my appetite,and my hair has started to shorten and by the way I hate that.. Lately I've been just totally depressed about my weight. I've never had a big belly now it's just buldged from the time I wake up in the morning.. Please help me I can't live like this I hate my body.. I can't do much exercise because Of my left knee.. So I need exercise with low impact to my knees.. I try to get motivated but it only last a few hours then it's back into my shell... I don't have a job right now because of my injury so I can't afford a lot of extras to my diet.. Foods can be kind of expensive when trying to eat right..