Sunday, October 17, 2010
I have exactly 10 minutes to write this so I must be quick then its off for another night shift. This is something I need to get off my chest. i have been stalled in my weight loss progress for quite a while, since May to be exact. I have been searching for answers because it is pretty frustrating. finally, while really searching my own heart, i have finally found an answer....I am sick and tired of trying to lose weight. I want to be normal again. I can run a half marathon for heavens sake what more????
Sustained weight loss means that you are basically putting your body through an extended period of, well, basically trauma. we are not designed to lose weight. losing weight sends a signal to the body that all is not well. it needs stability, not deficit. I guess I have grown tired of the battle and want to lay my sword down.
That is when the answer finally came to me, the enemy of excellence is good enough. I have been travelling through the weight loss desert for a long time and have finally found an oasis. a happy place where I can eat what I want and so long as the portions are reasonable and I stay running, there is no consequence. If you have ever watched foghorn leghorn - the rooster on looney tunes cartoons way back and when, he would sneak up on the barnyard dog and give him a paddling then run away just far enough outside the leash limit and the dog would choke on his collar trying to get at him while he stands there with a smirk as cool as a cucumber. I have found where the leash limit is and play the game. i have found my comfort zone and hung out the do not disturb sign.
Unfortunately, this oasis is actually a mirage and I need to move on, taking false comfort in good enough is the undoing of many people seeking a better life for themselves. This is a lesson for me and when this is learned and mastered, I will be even better.
After this upcoming Half Marathon, I am going to painfully renew my commitment to drop more weight. change is never easy but how sweet it will be to be the guy who loses 150 lbs and runs the Marathon. I am almost there. I will be that guy....