Sunday, October 17, 2010
Today was my city's marathon. It's a huge event, and it goes by my house (twice actually---it kinda loops around). Anyway, I had hoped at this point to be able to do the 10k as part of the marathon, but I couldn't get cleared to run outside again. It makes me feel so sad to not get to enjoy the beautiful fall weather. The treadmill is NOT the same. My husband has tried to cheer me up by offering to buy me tv shows for my Ipod so running on the treadmill isn't so boring, but it's not really the running at a wall that's getting to me. I mean, it's dull, but that's not it. It feels like I am trapped all the time. I can't use running as a release in the same way. I mix it up with inclines (truthfully, it's kinda nice to have the hill work), but it's not like I can ever have a surprise on the treadmill.
It really isn't too terrible---I'm mostly just grumpy because the docs seem to be saying that the outdoor running is going to be forever off the table. I could handle a small adjustment while i was in treatment, but to say it's NEVER going to be stable enough to allow for outdoor running breaks my heart. It's not just the running that's off the table---it's raking leaves (and jumping in them), going on summer picnics, hiking in the woods, and camping that are all seemingly just too risky for me.
I know I should be grateful I am so healthy overall. And I am. The breathing disorder won't kill me if I manage it properly----and I don't even need to take any medications to do it. But lifestyle changes are difficult, and suddenly changing so that i don't spend tons of time outdoors, or do outdoor activity, is a hard change to make, especially since I enjoy being active.
So any great indoor activity ideas? Not exercises like jumping jacks, but activities, like soccer. I think having an alternate plan would cheer me up a bit.
As it happens, this has been great for my strength training. I'm at the gym now anyway, so there's no real excuse not to lift weights. Plus, the guys working out with the free weights are kinda cute (don't tell my husband ;), and super nice about helping spot me, and pretend to be impressed that I bench 100 lbs now. So it's not all bad----just feeling a little down tonight.
Sorry for the rant and negativity! I'll try to pick it up next time :)