Sunday, October 17, 2010
I am a bit down, because I think my oldest Son, is disgusted with me, as to the path I have chosen. I guess his world is only what he can provide as a feast to all of us. And now I cannot participate, and I think he is put out by it. He hasn't called me for well over a week and a half. He usually calls at least 2 to three times a week. It's tough, trying to maintain the lifestyle, with a meat eater, and a hunter on top of that (He knows I am not happy with that) His thing is what he hunts he eats. That's fine, the part that gets me, is where did he get the make up to be able to kill a living thing? I know it wasn't me. Will have to blame that on his Dad. It breaks my heart to know I have a child with this capability. Meat eater or not, I still love and cherish my Son. He just needs to leave my choices to me, and not try to sabotage them with his negativity.
I don't try to put my lifestyle on him. My only thing I have ever been unhappy with as far as he goes, is his ability to kill an animal. I just ask him not to tell me about it, because of my sensitivity to it. He can save that conversation for his fellow hunters. So I feel he needs to be as understanding with me. I have a feeling he just doesn't understand, how I can choose this.