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Friday, 10/15 Ponderings about my health and weight loss

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Hi there,

I spent another hour in my classroom working on the many projects that I have going on today before going to see the eye doctor. That is always an "interesting" appointment. I went in right away and told the tech that my eyes and glasses have been driving me crazy for a while. It was hard to explain to him that I don't feel as if I need them when I am driving--but I have a restriction requiring them on my license. The tech seemed to think I was a bit off--but when the doc came in and took a quick look at my eyes (after the dilation...), he said to me "I'm betting that you are having a lot of problems with seeing and your glasses." I thought he had read it on my chart, but it turns out that the cataracts I have have changed and gotten a bit bigger with a different shape. That change has improved my vision, so I'll need new glasses. I expected to need new glasses, but the thing with the cataracts making my vision better was a bit strange to me. My doctor told me that I may need to have a couple of more changes in my glasses over the next year or two, but he didn't expect that. He also told me that he had another patient who had cataracts doing what mine are doing and they had to change this person's glasses 6 times in a year because of what the cataracts were doing. He also told me that if I started having any issues with light of any kind that make "big splatters" that interrupt my sight--and that I'd know it when it happens--it will be time to have surgery on the cataracts. However, for now, we will just live with the way they are. (I'm going to check cataracts out online tonight, lol.)

I spent the rest of my day grocery shopping and running errands. I sure miss having fresh berries and inexpensive melons at the store--and nice looking and tasting tomatoes. emoticon emoticon emoticon Oh well, I was able to shop in spite of the season and I got some nice deals on some meat packages. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon It takes a lot of meat for a meal around here and that is the item that I use as a basis for my meal planning. I know that there might be healthier ways to plan meals, but we DO feed an army here without the benefits of a government sized budget. Anyway, I did a good job and got a lot of chicken on sale. (To my vegan and vegetarian friends, I am glad that you have chosen your nutrition plans and that they work well for you, but even though you eat healthy and well, your choices won't work with the choices and taste preferences of my family. I do have a few meals that we have that are without meat, but it isn't enough to make a life choice like yours. I notice when I make a veggie chili or lasagna for my family that it doesn't seem to satisfy some of the big guys I feed adequately and then I am needing to complement the meals with more food, which defeats the purpose of what I've done in the first place. I am different than some of my family members, but in order to protect the family meal time and to use our time and resources wisely, we build our meals around the meat selections I have. I do believe that many people who are working on weight loss, healthy eating and weight management work within their family's needs, likes and wants.) Shopping can take a lot out of me, but I am so glad to go into stores these days and not need to use their electric carts. I use my walker and I am fortunate that it has a seat for when I have to sit down. I also know that I can walk longer and further than I could a month ago, so I am thankful for my weight loss and my daily exercise plan because they are responsible for my improved health.

I saw several doctors during my break. My rheumatologist is a wonderful, gifted man who gives quality patient-care. I see him every 6 months unless something comes up in between, and he always gives a complete physical at each visit. My fibromyalgia is a messy business because it generally is at a high level of flare. I have worked with several meds--not Lyrica because that side effect of weight gain and water retention will not help my other health needs and issues. I went off of everything, but when I returned to work, I found that I couldn't work all day without treatment. He prescribed two of the meds that had helped me in the past, but it turned out that my new body couldn't handle the meds I used to take. We talked about my weight loss--he was so happy for me--and we cut the dose of one med. He noticed a new issue with my right hip and thought that I would be having surgery on it. I was surprised to realize that my range of motion is so limited in that hip. I walk with so much difficulty from my back and some restrictions due to the RSD that interfered with my right knee replacement that I simply didn't notice any issues with my hip. I do believe that since it isn't giving me any unmanageable pain that I am not planning to bring it up with my orthopedist. I think I can work on strengthening it and increasing the range of motion through exercise in the pool. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonI am going to contact my physical therapist about some updates to my program and if that doesn't give me what I need--I may have to have a new prescription for her help--I may try working with the physical trainer at the fitness center. I also think it is time to add some work on the stationary bike to my routine. I signed up for my first fitness class earlier this evening, it is in the pool and this one happens to be free. I think it is a good way to add some new activities to my exercise plan and to maintain my body, preventing my arthritis from doing even more damage to my remaining joints. It is exciting for me to sign up for a fitness class. Remember that I have always been obese and inactive. This is something that I want to do and believe I am capable of. This is also in the pool and I am comfortable enough with my body to join a class that requires me to wear my swimsuit around others. This is a tremendous shift in a lifetime of being the fat, incapable person for me and I am feeling good about who I have become. emoticon emoticon emoticon I have found out that there is a big problem in the shoulder that I have whined so much about for the past two months. After the trials of the MRI, it turns out that there is thickening of the tendons that go over and around my shoulder and there is at least one tear--I couldn't hear if she said tear or tears. I am going to see my wonderful orthopedist rather than just any of the possible docs or the lady I have been seeing about this. She told me that I have already had the conservative treatments and something more is needed. I am a bit bugged by all I have went through to get this point across. I have several friends with OA, RA, EDS and other ailments who all have a similar story to tell about having a problem and having to go through a lot of people, expensive testing and ineffective measures to finally get someone's help with a problem that they were well aware of from the beginning. It really bugs me that patients have to "prove" their needs at such a level. I don't know if this is because some people don't know or fib or whatever, but it seems like a backwards way of doing some things especially with a patient with a chronic health condition who knows their body and its responses. I also don't know the role of the insurance companies and the doctors balancing potential malpractice concerns in this, but it sure makes getting help for a problem so difficult for a patient who wants to live with a decent quality of life. ****OK, I'll end that rant!!

On the same note, I got the result of my recent mammogram repeat. This is another of my ranting. I am a big baby with a mammo, but I sure understand their importance. I have excessive pain with a mammo for several reasons. First of all is the obvious--standing for the length of time needed sets my back off and it gets increasingly worse. Secondly, I have a nice scar on the right side from my gall bladder surgery that is exactly in the place that the mammo machine hits me when I have to hug it. Thirdly, I believe that my fibromyalgia makes this touching and squeezing more uncomfortable for me than someone without this--or a similar condition. Finally, with my background with this, I have naturally "fibrous" tissue that seems to cause issues with this process. I have had problems surface one time after the next that has resulted in me having a previous biopsy, surgery to remove a lumpy area, a needle biopsy, and repeated mammograms annually that often land me on a table for ultrasound evaluations. This is not something that we talk about in the faculty room and I don't know for sure, but I am assuming I really HATE mammograms and it takes me forcing myself to go. It is far worse to get the call or report that I have to go back to have another picture or whatever and to have to go back for a repeat session. They hurt--and I resent the technicians who have told me that they don't hurt other women. (I find that hard to believe, but it does not change my personal issues to hear or know that.) I can actually feel the pain in my right side from the mammo machine by thinking about it, I have experienced it enough. I believe that this is a serious issue--and after seeing all of the products in the store today that have jumped on the breast cancer bandwagon, I know that the world is taking this seriously. I do wish I could understand why we just don't simply go to an ultrasound for my annual test at this point. I don't understand why my tissue is "fibrous" and other women don't seem to be blessed with that. I also don't know why my tissue is even more fibrous with my weight loss, but I know the weight loss is still a good thing. If anyone could enlighten me on any of this, I would appreciate it. I think that there has to be a way to check on this without all of the discomfort I go through. I hate feeling like a baby or a whiner or whatever, but this is my reality. I also wonder if the need to repeat this so frequently is really necessary for someone in my position who has been tested and tested and tested again. Am I at more risk of a problem? I guess I really just want to find a way that isn't so stressful to do this while staying responsible and keeping focused both on why we need mammograms and on the potential tragedy for not being screened as needed. ****END of another rant, but my request for info is sincere, please let me know if you can answer any of my questions!

My basic health is awesome--the chronic stuff is just a part of who I am. It was so good to have a physical with the kind of reports that I have had--ongoing and continued weight loss, great blood pressure without medication any more, wonderful level of LDL cholesterol (110 when less than 130 is desired--YAY, that's my best ever!!) and a great level of HDL cholesterol as well (It was 39 when 40 or above is desired--I am working on that with more omega 3's in my diet.) I hope that i haven't messed up my cholesterol types again, I think of the bad as LDL with the L referring to Lousy for the bad stuff, tee hee. I never thought I would be getting handshakes and congratulations from doctors on such stuff in my entire life. I have not quite arrived, but I am sure on my way.

It has been a busy two week break for me--ten medical appointments really kept me hopping. I have learned a lot about myself physically and emotionally. I am now ready to reflect on my goals after all of this data. I need to keep working on weight loss in order to get my body at its best performance potential. I need to keep exercising daily and I expect to do most of that work at the pool with my arthritis issues, however I also recognize that I need to continue tweaking things regularly and that I am ready to add some out of pool activities to my routines. This is another big milestone for me. I also know that I need to really stay focused on the quality of the foods I eat because I need far fewer calories at my current weight that is over 110 pounds where I started and I have less "wiggle room" within my daily plan. I am taking 6000 units of Vitamin D daily and a monthly Vitamin b12 injection per doctor's orders along with a multi-vitamin, but I would like my diet to meet my natural needs. I think I am smart enough to do this and will continue to work on quality of what I eat. I do not believe 5 servings of fruits and veggies is enough and I constantly work to have more each day. I eat very little bread, rice, pasta--so getting in those nice carbs is tricky. I only buy whole grain breads when I buy them and I am working on converting my family.

I am on the right track, but I am also a "work in progress." I count SP as one of my many blessings because I do not know where I would be now if I hadn't made all of these changes. I know that the holiday season is upon us (after my shopping experiences yesterday and all of the displays) and after our two days of conferences that turned our faculty room into the most dangerous grazing area in the world, I also recognize that I need to stay focused and I need all of the help and support I get here at SP. I also expect that my work on my National boards renewal will restrict my time here even more. I am working on building a schedule for my writing time and coordinating it with my work schedule and my exercise time--leaving time for my family in all of this. It will be quite a balancing act, but I know that I can do all of this if I am organized. As always, stick with me as this unfolds and please remind me to stay away from the food that will start showing up with Halloween and will be non-stop until after the new year is upon us.

Thanks for letting me ponder and sort through what I have learned about my body from the medical people who care for me. I believe that it is really important that we manage the data we are given and we use it to make the changes that make us more healthy. This information is only valuable if it drives our decision making and helps us to become even better than we were. With your help, SP and my family--along with God and my abundant blessings--I will be at my best possible condition. I recognize that I am in this for life and am so glad to have all of you and this information and support to get me there.

This is how I once was--note the back brace as well as the wheel chair--this was the "small" brace without the bars attached to my left leg.

These are photos of the beauty of fall here in the Midwest this past week!

These final photos are of our little pug Frankie at our camping trip last weekend. He is such a loving little doll and loves to be with people, no matter what we might be up to!!

(I forgot to mention how much he enjoys sleeping, didn't I? This last photo surprised all of us because he didn't even have his bed and he didn't wake up while my son was capturing this image!)
Gentle hugs and happy fall to each of you!
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    I so am glad you are least finally learning what is going on with your health currently. I have never heard of that happening with cataracts. How unfortunate (and expensive if you have to keep getting new glasses ). I don't know how they can say mammos don't hurt. Everyone I have listened to hates it. My Mom has been putting it off for a long time since she had one cause it hurt so much. Pretty insensitive of the staff not to respect your complaints. I simply can't imagine having fibro and getting that done. If there is an alternative, I would be going for it if I was you. Stand up for your rights here.
    Even though I am vegetarian I am by no means opposed to meat at all. Just have to choose the leanest cuts, and watch the portions. But your family, shown in your photos, aren't exactly normal weight. So it can't all be blamed on just the meat. Sparks does have healthy recipes for converting old favorites into calorie wise meals. I have one Spark friend whose husband was close to divorcing her if she didn't lose her weight (and she wasn't even seriously overweight!!). There seems to be such a double standard that makes me furious. The women have to be a normal weight, while their tubby hubbies continue to scarf down any and all junk they please.. I have seen photo after photo of this and it makes me furious really. You are trying so hard to live a healthy lifestyle, and yet your family gets what ever they feel like eating? That sound right? Not only is it unhealthy for them, they could be heading for serious health problems down the road. If you are controlling the groceries and food that come into the house, and doing the cooking, then you have the power to do something about it. A big part of not being tempted by high calorie, high fat food is to not bring it in the house in the first place. Just by giving up my buttered popcorn, and not buying it any more made a huge difference to me. Its not about depriving anyone of their favorite dishes, just making them healthier..I would love to see you family adopt a healthy lifestyle right alongside you.
    Don't take this as a harsh criticism. I know its very difficult. My sister had the same trouble. Her traditional 'meat and potatoes' family HATED the new spices and dishes she was trying and still don't like them. They pleaded with us to take away her spice rack LOL. They would rather have their bacon and eggs, pizzas, hamburgers, hot dogs, frozen dinners, etc. etc, and pop and coffee by the bucket load. I am actually amazed they haven't put on weight, but they are active on the farm and at school. The oldest has an electrician's job. It will be interesting to see how they cope when they finally move off and live on their own (if they ever do).
    Wishing you nothing but the best, as always and continued success,
    {{{gentle hugs}}}
    2552 days ago
    Frankie is beautiful!
    2558 days ago
    I am so sorry that you have to go through so much and are in so much pain all the time. You amaze me. You are in my thoughts and prayers. That you keep on keeping on just blows me away. My problems pale in light of yours. Be blessed and be well my friend. Love, Dawn emoticon emoticon
    2560 days ago
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