Friday, October 15, 2010
I have been under a tremendous amount of stress at work these last few weeks with new responsibilities, deadlines, constant changes, new relationships to build etc... All the while, I have managed to make time for fitness, tracking, drinking water, freggies, etc. Thankfully, SP has helped me keep my anchor from sailing away back into my old habits.
This week, however, I am feeling tired and cranky from overworking/many deadlines, not to mention family responsibilities that come with a busy household. I may be hitting a brick wall as my mind and body are completely exhausted. The scale isn't moving and I just don't care right now. I want to sleep for days as I need rest.
I find that my weight loss journey has become a full time job on its own and I'm feeling exhausted. I want it to become second nature, so that I don't have to think about it so much. How long does this take? Can this ever happen for me? Finding time to take care of my health is sometimes easy to ignore. The excuses pile up...Sometimes, I just don't feel like investing the time and energy to track what I eat, remember to drink the water, eat the freggies, and make time for fitness. Sometimes, it's just too darn hard. I want it to be easy. I want someone to give me a hug and say it'll all be o.k. I want to whisked away into blissful happiness where I don't have to think about anything for a while. I want to shut my brain off, eat what I want & do absolutely nothing but relax.
While I learned early on that life isn't easy, it would be nice if just sometimes it took a little less effort so that I could also breathe once in a while. So, today, I AM pausing to breathe...I want to be healthy and fit for ME, so that I can enjoy the life I AM grateful to have. I want to set a good example for my kids too so that they grow up having the tools that they'll need to always take care of their health, regardless of any obstacles that life will throw their way.
I AM also doing it for the team I'm part of right now, the SPARK SPIRITS. You are the reason I AM not giving up right now. I WILL find my motivation in me TODAY to give back to the team so that we can continue on our travels together feeling fit, strong, healthy and happy. I got a good night's rest, already had breakfast. I WILL regain my balance and stay the course. I WILL get in my run today which I did only once and half way this week.
I WILL NOT give up because that is not an option for me!