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Longest Month of My Life


Wednesday, October 13, 2010

To those of you that have been wondering what is going on with my Mom.

This has been the longest Month of my Life. I am so tired, but I do not have time to stop yet.

My Mom is a very strong lady, she can squeeze your hand and bring you to tears or break a nail (which she did). She got that from garden all of these years, she loves her flowers and veggies. Her whole life she has spent in her yard.

She entered the hospital on Sept. 13th and is still there, this montht has been like "Toad's Wild Ride" to say the least.

Every step of the way I have relayed on Jehovah to help me do the right thing, and around every corner I never knew what would happen.

After she had the surgery to close the hole in her stomach to stop the air leaking in, they placed the feeding tube, but she was not able to come off of the ventilator she they wanted place a trach tube for her to breath with and my brother and I were both ready to say no because we knew she did not want that but she said yes. We both think she got scared and was afraid that she would not be able to breath on her own. That's ok that was her choice. But once she realized that she had it she was very unhappy and the longer she stayed on it the better her body liked the air it was getting so she was becoming very dependent on it. They told us that she was stable and did not need to stay in ICU anymore and we need to decide what we wanted to do.

We were told that there were only two facilities that provide the care that she needed in Fresno and only 5 in the whole Valley so most people that need her type of care had to go down South. In my mind and my brothers that was not an option. No way are we going to send out Mother down South with no family around. We told them no that is not an option. She really did not want to live on a tube all of her life. So we they said that if we were sure that that is not what she wanted we could look into Palliative Care.

We decided to go with Palliative care since she was terminal and there was no cure for her. So yesterday (10/11/10) we took her off of the feeding tube, and the ventilator and she was put on a morphine drip to keep her comfortable while the ventilator was taken off so she would not panic if her breathing started to stop. They told they did not know how long she would last because there is no way to know. Well she started breathing on her own that was at 3:00 yesterday, I went back to the hospital today at 1:00 and she was still breathing on her own and stable. So I sat beside her for a few hours and told her how much I loved her and that Jehovah loves her and talk to her about everything I could think of to make her comfortable. I know that she can still hear me.

Like I said in the beginning she is a very strong lady. My Mom and I love her. I have spent may day crying my eyes out and even though I do not celebrate my birthday on that day I went to see her and she kept hugging me and frowning and hugging me more, I think she knew that is was that day (they write the date on the board and she could see it) and she knew how hard this is for me. I cried so much that night at the hospital and going home that I did not want to go back by myself because I was afraid to drive in that condition again, I was afraid I would get into an accident and did not want that to happen.

I still cry but I have had a calm come over me and I will get through this.
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CLAUDEM1 11/18/2011 12:18PM

    Dearest Janine,

It has been a month since your terrible loss. How are you coping? I lost my dad 22 years ago. I still miss him, but my sense of loss has lightened. Now when I think of him, I remember his strong faith in Jehovah and his promises of a resurrection. I think of the lessons he taught us by example; generosity brings joy, always be helpful to those in need; a good belly laugh is essential to living well...

Can I share a thought I read a few days ago in an old notebook regarding the resurrection? We are on a huge ship cruising at increasing speed forward. The future paradise is our
destination. Whether we get there on the observation deck or in a sleeper, we will get there together. The journey is almost over. Soon, very soon, we will be reunited with our loved ones.

Take care, and remember you are surrounded by a loving family who care for you.

Your sister,
Claudette xo

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GAMOMMY3 10/18/2010 12:44PM

    My heart aches for you. Please continue relying on Jehovah. He will get you through this very difficult time. emoticon

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MARIE4950 10/14/2010 11:34PM

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BOOKWERME 10/14/2010 11:16PM

    And now this is over. I hope the memorial or funeral will not take too heavy a toll on your already heavy heart. May Jehovah smooth out the way before you, hold your hand and show you the way. With love and sympathy. emoticon

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SHARISHORTCAKE 10/14/2010 1:09PM

    Sending love and prayers to you and your family. We've all had similar experiences and know your pain.

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LUV_VICKIE 10/14/2010 10:35AM

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VANDYJ 10/13/2010 6:52PM

    I am so sorry that you are going through this heartbreak. Yes, relying on Jehovah is the only thing that you can do right now, and he will not leave you for a moment. I am one who will be keeping you and your mom in my prayers.

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ONLYTEMPORARY 10/13/2010 1:49PM

    Janene, Jehovah is there for the both of you. He is watching and giving you the strength to get through everything. Remember too, both of you are in the hearts and prayers of many people. emoticon emoticon

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ARIZONAROSE 10/13/2010 2:15AM

    ((hugs)) Jehovah will help you just keep relying on him.. more ((hugs))

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