When do we learn? Seriously?

I never think of myself as an emotional eater, but last night, after nearly 2 years, I fell off the wagon. I'm tired from one of my pain meds and still in pain.

Last night, between the pain and the exhaustion from the nerve pain meds, I couldn't read or concentrate on a tennis match on TV.

What I could do was eat.

Since there are only healthy foods in the fridge, my pig-out contained a mere 500 calories, but I did it. After so much time, I was willing to sabotage my efforts for yogurt and raw almonds.

What was I thinking? As my back deteriorates, my ability to exercise gets more and more limited, making just maintaining where I am a challenge. I certainly didn't need the extra calories. And, they didn't stop the pain or the exhaustion.

When will I learn?