Sunday, October 10, 2010
There's only 12 weeks till 2011! It's so soon! Where did the time go?! Why am I using so many exclamations marks?!
I'm feeling a lot of anxiety about the year ending and a new one beginning. I think I know why. For most of my life, Halloween has marked 'Open Season' on my binging and overeating. Historically, for the next three months I will give myself permission to eat whatever, and as much, as I want. I would normally start planning my baking schedule for the season. 3 dozen cookies a week, new pie recipes, chocolate covered something-or-other. The idea is that I'm creating memories for my children. Memories of a mother in an apron, a smile on her face, a home that smells liked something just came out of the oven all the time. The problem with that is that I end up eating most of what I bake and feeling guilty and sad about the state of my health. I have created memories of a frazzled, overweight, binging mother for my children. Will I forever link sadness and overeating to the holiday season for my children?
Not if I can help it! And I can help it, I know how. Sparkpeople has shown me what to do. I am not the same woman I was last year because this year, I have a plan.
Step 1. Fess up
My weight loss has slowed down because I'm making poor nutrition choices and have taken my sweet time coming up with an new exercise plan after finishing C25k. I have turned to food for comfort during times of stress and boredom. I have gotten a little complacent about tracking calories.
Step 2. Forgive myself (This step is necessary for any forward movement)
I am trying to change habits that have ruled my life for 30 years. I am learning new things about myself everyday. I am capable of change. Making counter-productive choices is not evidence of worthlessness.
Step 3. Make a plan with lots of specific verbs
I will eat 1400-1650 calories a day. Most of those calories will come from fruits, vegetables and lean proteins. I will drink 48 + oz. of water a day. I will track every single calorie. I will stop eating after 8:30 PM. I will make meal plans. I will start getting ready for bed at 10, in bed by 11. I will give myself 7 days to find a cardio/strength program that is right for me and has specific goals to reach. I will exercise 200 minutes + a week., 120 minutes will be cardio. I will lose 20 lbs by Jan 1st. I will look for new and exciting information about health and caring for my body every day.
Step 4. Make my intentions public to keep myself accountable
Please see above Blog.
Step 5. Stop over thinking it, start doing it.
Okay, I have confessed to my self-sabotaging choices and come up with a plan that will help me create new habits. I have made them public and now I'm gonna do it.
I want this. I want to be healthy and strong. I want to make the holiday season fun for my kids by being productive, happy, calm and active.
12 weeks people!