Sunday, October 10, 2010
Friday night before I went to bed I worked out on Wii Fit for an hour. Now normally I wouldn't work out right before bed, but I wasn't really intending to go to bed. I was intending to stay up and clean. But, my daughter had some emotional stuff going on, and so I snuggled with her and we both went to sleep. I woke up at 7am feeling fabulous!
Normally, being a proverbial "night owl" by nature, as I have been all my life... waking up at 7am is NOT the most joyous part of my day. Especially when it means getting up to nag my son to get out of bed so I can drive him 30 miles to school on a rainy morning. However, that said, I really, really DID feel fabulous when I woke up yesterday morning! But hey.... it was Saturday morning and still dark outside, so I went back to bed. LOL
But I have to say that after I woke up the second time, I felt really great all day (and night.. since I haven't actually been to bed yet..) It's THAT week for me... you know the one I'm talking about that happens every 3 weeks or so... so I'm generally more emotional than usual, of course ( although mostly on one day which I've labeled for years my "RED FLAG" day). Today though, for some reason, I've really been processing a lot of emotions about a few different things that have gone on in my life over the past few years that have typically brought up feelings of anger and hurt. Today... I could feel the anger and hurt really start to let go.. and just feel moments of sadness mixed with fond memories of the good things. And in between those moments... absolute freedom and bliss.
Today was a really. good. day.
Truthfully, I'm feeling too happy right now to want to go sleep.. I want to stay up and enjoy the happy feeling! But that is the manic side of the bipolar part of me resisting. I know that my body needs sleep to continue feeling this good, so I am going to go sleep, whether I really want to, or not.
Good night, world. Wherever you are. It's nearly 8am my time. But hey, I'm all backwards.