Saturday, October 09, 2010
Don't get me wrong. I have been loosing weight. And more importantly inches. I am getting stronger. And healthier. I am finding ways to eat my veggies and astonishing my mother at the same time.
And yet I am getting discouraged! I started walking about five months ago. I walk/jog about ten miles a week. I walk a little. I jog a little. I'm working my way up to more jogging and less walking. Here's where the discouragement comes in. It's been FIVE MONTHS! I still cannot jog more than half a mile. And sometimes that feels like it is killing me. My muscles feel strong. They could go farther. But I can't breathe. My friends keep telling me it's just mind over matter. I Focus, I Control, I Try--Hard. It doesn't work.
Once I jogged a mile. An entire mile. Without stopping. I kept expecting it to get difficult. It didn't. It was incredible. I want that feeling again. What was different about that one night that I could do it then but at no other time?
I read blogs posted by all of you. I read blogs of people training just a few months and being able to run a 5k. Why can't I?