Friday, October 08, 2010
I am a very light sleeper. The smallest noise, inside or out usually wakes me up and when I am up I donít fall back to sleep right away. Mostly I just lie there. Iím not complaining. Iíve gotten used to this. My neighbor leaves for work around three thirty and his car wakes me up.
Iím lying there this morning and I start thinking about things I want to do in my life which inevitably leads me to think about everything Iíve messed up in my life. Itís sort of like you canít have one without the other. I beat myself up for a few minutes and now Iím even more wide awake. This leads me to asking God why it is that I cannot seem to get a streak of more than one thing going as it relates to getting it right. Ya know, like, why is it so hard for me to be ďperfect,Ē LOL.
Godís response to my heart:
ďI know everything youíve ever done and as a matter of fact I know everything you are ever going to do and when all is said and done it doesnít change the way I feel about you. It just changes the way YOU feel about you.Ē
I hate it when Heís right.
ďI havenít always eaten right or exercised ax much as I should. Gee, itís not picture perfect. Maybe I should just give up. Iím just me, Iím not likeÖÖ..Ē
ďI was meant to be fat. Iím not one of those people who can just go out and create some sort of plan. I have issues.Ē
ďMy lifeís too busy, too complicated and I have a lot of drama. Too much stress. Itís not a good time for me.Ē
I know none of you use those excuses.
God asked me to tell you that it doesnít matter how many times you fail or give up or get plain old frustrated. He wants us to know that as long as we keep coming back and keep trying that He is right there.
Then I fell back to sleep
Usually I would add my own thoughts here, but, uhm, considering this message was pretty strong and Who it came from, Iím going to leave it at that. He doesn't need my help. LOL
Have a blessed Friday and oh yeah, I love you too!!!