Thursday, October 07, 2010
I have sometimes resented the nutrition tracker, and I definitely have struggled to enter every morsel, every day. However, the tracker has somewhat redeemed itself as it provided me with an AHA moment...or a kick in the butt, whichever way I choose to look at it, I need to make some changes.
My diet of late has been far to low in protein, and far to high in carbs. I am choosing whole grain breads and cereals, but given my numbers, too many of them. I have been really frustrated by my very slow progress, and I think I might have a clue as to why. I am guessing the pie and ice cream (98% fat free) doesn't help. Good thing it's all gone, and my omni will be working away from home for the next few days. This means, I won't buy more and therefore won't be tempted. I struggle with preparing foods for both of us, and usually by the time I have figured out his meal, done the prep and have it nicely cooking, I give up and lose creativity when it comes to my own meals. I end up eating whatever he is having, except I leave out the flesh. No can do. This approach has proven itself to be counterproductive. I realise that when I put some thought into my menu selections, I tend to make some pretty good choices.
I am still sore. Given that I packed my books yesterday, which meant a lot more lifting than I am used to, the tendonitis in my wrists has flared up, and my elbow was giving Agony a run for the money....I need a new term for beyond agony. I almost gave in and used the pain meds (can you tell I hate popping pills?) I will continue to use them only when really, really needed....at least until I fully understand their effects on my body and how I can minimise any anticipated damage. I continue to cope by using Arnica Salve (locally harvested and made I might add). The upside to the soreness is that some of it is that kind of muscle soreness I welcome...it tells me some muscles got a much needed workout. I can feel it in my chest and upper back, and......triceps!! Yay, I swear, I will get rid of those wings!!
This morning, I wrote a seven page outline for a business plan that is due at the end of the month. If successful, we will be able to increase our business earning capacity four-fold. Pretty exciting now that I am getting into it.
Once I was done with that, I packed up 4 plastic bins of kitchen/dining room stuff...just a little light packing for today. Today is the day I can get more boxes, hopefully, and I may even do some dumpster diving again....Then, I plan to take it easy and give my body a much needed, well deserved and earned rest. I know that if I don't, I will not be able to manage my pain without drugs.
Yesterday, I posted on Facebook....my status states how much I love my daughter, what she has brought to my life, how grateful I am to have her in my life...I did it on Facebook on purpose. I keep trying to open her daddy's eyes to what he is missing. I keep hoping he will wake up and be a daddy. But, as long as he stays married to the wicked step monster, that is not likely to happen. So sad.
My omni and I had a great talk last night, made some plans for our future. It has been a while, and both of us have been stuck in our own thoughts, planning our own futures, that we seemed to be living parallel, but seperate lives. Not good enough. So, we have re-affirmed our committment and are forging ahead...together. I like feeling supported, I will quickly get used to this!!
So, today is a protein day......hmmmmm...what should I have for lunch......