I am sure that there is a light there somewhere. As I said previously, I have been here before and I know that eventually I will get out of this funk. I appreciate the comment from my previous post and I am going to take that advise to heart and really give it a try except seeing a professional. I myself tried going to school for that same type of work and therefore know what is entailed so I am going to do what all professionals do - self analyse. Not the smartest thing to do but as I said, been here before and I came out okay for a long time. I just need to work hard and make improvements in what areas that are getting me down.