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Frustrated and confused over my weight

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

I just don’t get what is happening to me and my body. I lost a bunch of weight 4 years ago, managed to keep it off, and maintained around the same weight during those 4 years and now I can’t stop the weight from returning. I am so confused and frustrated, but the good in all this is that ED hasn’t returned but I am scared that if I don’t find a way to keep the weight off it will not be long before he returns again.

Everything was going fine until I had my IUD removed on Match 13, 2010; that day at the doctors, I weighed 130 with clothes on. Then in June, I turned 35 and everything has just been going down hill from there. Is it hormonal, age, etc...? All I know is that I still workout everyday during lunch for about 45 min and have been eating the same I always have for the past 4 years. Sure, I am not purging, but I have been in recovery for almost 3 years so that shouldn’t be a factor.

I decided I wanted to get back to 130 for myself confidence and my upcoming wedding in January, so I started logging my food again on SP and also upped my exercise to include additional exercise classes at my gym. Besides my daily lunch workouts, I am now going to 2-3 classes at night/weekend. The biggest change I made was a week ago when I started drinking water, not just some water but at least 64oz a day, sometimes even 80+…but now the scale went from 139/140 to 144 – yikes what is happening?

I am trying to stay calm and tell myself my body is just adjusting to the water change, but after a week shouldn’t the water come out? I started contemplating over the counter diet pills, which I know don’t work anyways and is just another way ED is trying to make his appearance.

I burn around 2300 cals a week according to my heart rate monitor and eat anywhere from 1400 cals a day to sometimes on the weekends splurging to 1900 cals; which isn’t horrible enough to cause the weight gain? Per SP to lose the weight by my wedding in January I should consume no more then 1650, so most days I am staying under anyways.

Has anyone else had this kind of a problem before? I feel so frustrated and not sure what to do? I contemplated getting up and running in the mornings a couple days, but my boyfriend didn’t seem too happy with that idea since I am ready at the gym everyday and he is afraid I am starting to get compulsive about my exercise again and next will fall back into the hands of ED, so I can’t do that.

Ideas anyone?
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    It's so hard not to fall into obsessing about weight/the scale, but for me that is one of my biggest ED triggers.
    One of the things that has been consistently suggested to me is to weigh 1x per week. That may help for you? It sounds to me like the weight change is a direct result of the change in water intake...so it should fluctuate based on how much water you're a drinking daily. If you weigh daily, you may just be really confused. If you weigh weekly, you might get a better picture of what's going on?
    Let me know how I can help! I'm here for ya!
    2651 days ago
  • WOOBIE0902
    I had the same issue when I consciously started to try and drink 8 glasses a day; my diet and exercise hadnt changed but I saw the weight creep up a few lbs. The additional H20 was also causing an extremely uncomfortable bloat.

    I drink a lot of fluids including coffee, herbal tea, low sodium broth etc and with fresh water I cut my conumption to 32 ounces. I've noticed a huge improvement, and I follow a low sodium diet.

    Good luck. Glad to hear old ED isnt showing his face around.!!!
    2703 days ago
    I don't have any adivce cuz I'm 38 and 170 and trying and trying to get to 135. But this I can say ... I hear you and feel your suffering. I know what it's like to work and work and not see any advances.

    Some advice that a nice woman gave me here is not to look at the scale but to measure yourself weekly. I do know the more you workout the more muscel you gain and that weighs more. And yes, I see that you've been working out. And yes, it could be age and hormones.

    Keep going with the right heart and attitude. Keep listening to your gut and not your head! Listen to the gut instinct to stay away from ED. You know what to do and PLEASE stay healthy!

    You can do this!
    2704 days ago
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