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Moar updates!!! ;) Plus best brownie recipe ever. SERIOUSLY.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Thanks for the feedback on my last blog, guys.

Ironically, I did a weigh in the next day and had the scale register my lowest weight yet?!??
I do not understand my wacky body - it's as confusing as my wacky brain.

I also don't get why it's just surprise food that triggers me. If I bake and eat what I make, have it planned and am intentional, I do not get food guilt! I made fantastic brownies this weekend (seriously, the most PERFECT brownies I've ever eaten. The definitive perfect brownie for this gooey brownie lover) and ate my one serving happily, no guilt. I think it's all about control. I like to feel like I'm always in control and if I allow myself to eat something in a *controlled* way, I'm fine. If I eat mindlessly or on a craving, I wig. It needs to be planned! I need to have the numbers all worked out.

I want to work on that. I'm going to eventually have to stop tracking every thing I eat. I need to trust myself and try to eat intuitively. I've proven that I'm pretty good at keeping a stable weight, I've ranged from my lowest weight of 124ish up to 129ish in the last 9 months. That's pretty darn solid! Most of the time I spent in the 126-128 range. I should definitely be proud of that.

I also haven't had clothing get tight on me at all during that time. I've had items get looser due to changing body composition - many of my 4s are baggy and I'm in even small shirts now ... goodbye boobs - but I haven't had enough inches growth to change my sizes dramatically towards the larger. I'm leaning more to the 2 side of 2/4s I believe. Wow. I still sort of do a double take when I write that out. How in the heck did this happen again?

Anyway. I'm trying to even out. Eating enough for the last three weeks and having my exercise intensity drop a bit has been good for my moods. I definitely wasn't eating enough when I was doing all those long 3+ hour training runs and running 33-38 miles a week. I felt like death and was crabby and awful. Going to remember that in the future.

My first 3.5 mile run on the foot went well. It was tender but not painful. No residual soreness, either. Going to ease into it and keep on biking while I work some shorter runs in this week. Do a couple 3-4 miles on soft ground and such.

I think I'll sign up for the 10K race this Saturday. I did that same race as my first (and only) 10K exactly one year to the day. It'll be a nice sort of circular path to run that race again as my second 10K. :) I jumped from 5Ks to 10 milers and half marathons so I just didn't race a lot of the shorter 10K distances. I like that mileage, 6.2 is enough to feel like you ran without it being a distance race where fuel and such comes into play. It'll be a nice little short race to get me back into marathon training mode - and I LOVE racing(!) so much(!!) that it'll be a great treat. :)

So, that's the plan. Two short 3-4 milers and a race on Saturday.

Oh, and stop freaking out so much. Gotta put that on the to do list...
Sheesh, lady.

Oh, and 'cause it's just CRUEL if I talk up the brownies and don't share...

Worth. Every. Calorie.
I use Ener-G egg replacer rather than an egg and screw that whole "makes 20 servings" thing. Tiny brownies are not my thing. I make a normal 9 servings and they are 180 calories, 6 grams fat. Which is not bad for a fudge brownie. And these are FUDGY. I want to make them again. Sob. Crinkly tops, chewy but soft edges and gooey middles? Brownie HEAVEN.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
LIV2RIDE 9/28/2010 6:41AM

    So glad to hear your run went well. thanks for the link. I love checking out new blogs especially the ones with recipes. Good luck with your running plan.

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JLITT62 9/28/2010 5:43AM

    I can understand the whole control issue. But you already know you're in control -- you're maintaining your weight, and that's fantastic! That's what it's all about!

Do you think a race after a long hiatus from running is truly a good thing, tho? Don't want to be a Debbie Downer, but . . . gotta throw it out there.

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MBSHAZZER 9/27/2010 7:57PM

    YAY! Glad to hear the run went well. Thanks for the link to the blog. Her receipes look really good... especially the brownies!

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GOLDIES1 9/27/2010 6:55PM

    Sounds so good, I'm going to try it.

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