Monday, September 27, 2010
I won a session with a personal trainer at my gym, and one of the first things he asked me is what my goal was. When I couldn't answer, he offered a couple of body types I might like: Beyonce vs. Serena. "Yes" and "yes" were my replies, lol. I know they look different, but I like the femininity of both of them and especially Serena's strength. But in the end, I know I cannot look like either.
I find it frustrating that the more I lean out, the less feminine my curves become. It doesn't help that one of the "women" whose figures I most admired growing up was Jessica Rabbit, a cartoon for goodness sake! I am trying my best to come to terms with this conundrum: improve my body overall while removing one of the most important feminine body parts (to me) at the same time. But it's better to love 90% of the new figure and buy a special Victoria's Secret bra than to love 10% while fitting into a size 16. Sorry this isn't really a happy blog, I just needed to get it off my chest (haha).