Monday, September 27, 2010
So, last week I posted that I had a really big piece of cake for my grandson's birthday party. And I said that I was going back on track the next day.
I did more or less go back on track, but what surprised me was that I found myself thinking about sweets and things that are counter-healthy to my weight loss goals. A lot! Not having had sweets for a quite some time, at least since the Mexican Fiesta Party that I attended back in August, my mind was just preoccupied this week about having more cakes and muffins and cookies, ya..you get the idea. And I am sorry to say that I caved in to some of those cravings. I can't for the life of me, figure out why, after all this time, I gave in! Could it be because because I am just getting tired of this healthy eating regime? I hope not, because I like the results that I am getting from cutting out the "bad" stuff I used to consume in great quantities.
Could it be that my body "needs" to taste the sweets? I don't want that either!
There has to be a happy medium somewhere in the middle that I can eat the sweets, and still not go crazy for them.
Being a self-confessed food addict, I know my mind. I know what happens when I give in. I try really hard to stay focused, telling myself that the constant snacking of sweets will undo all that I am strivin for. And when I give in, well, it's just not a nice thing. I've even thought about allowing myself to have the "forbidden" foods once a week, but I fear that if I do that, it won't stop at once a week. Like this week. Cake on Sunday, then at work there were muffins, and coffee cake. Although the amounts were small, they still got consumed by me, and I saw the results when I tracked them in my food journal. Ya, I was honest about it and tracked the stuff. And I didn't like what I saw.
Hey, I just realized a way to keep me on track! I will print out those "bad" day reports, and hang them on my fridge, or bring them to work with me and keep them in my pocket. Then when I am tempted, I will look at it, and see what I am about to do and that will be my deterrant to eating off the plan.
And through all of this, I didn't gain any weight this week, either. Which really surprises me. Maybe my scale is broken. But I didn't lose any, either, and I am liking seeing small weight losses each week.
Ok, enough ranting. I'm going to print my reports and start back on following the plan more closely.
Everybody...have a fabulous week!