Saturday, September 25, 2010
Last night, I clicked the "add a blog entry" link in my In my sparkpoints tracker. I opened the blogging window and...started to cry. This crying thing, so unlike me, was a trend yesterday. When the nurse at the clinic I've been going to since my husband lost his job (and our insurance) back in March '09 asked what was going on today, I teared up a little. When, before she left the room to bring in the PA, she asked if she could pray for me, I thought she meant to add me to her prayers. I'm not religious. At all. And folks preaching at me is generally a huge annoyance that I only don't react angrily to because I admire their ability (and respect their right) to believe. As long as it doesn't cross the line into crazy wingnut. Plus, I'm just a nice person.
I totally didn't expect her to touch my arm and bow her head and ask with soft voice, in great detail, that I be healed... Yeah, I'm tearing up again. I'd never seen her before, she didn't know me. But to finally be open and honest, to say to another person "I need more help, I can't do this anymore" and for her to respond, not only by bringing me a PA with the powers to give me better drugs but to offer me *her god* as well?
So. The blog window was still open when I sat down to my desk today. Still here. As am I. I got some new meds, one for which the second sentence of the thirteen paragraph IMPORTANT WARNING (as opposed to the plain old ordinary regular warnings, which follow) mentions "may cause death" and another to help counteract some of the other--non death--side effects of the first. Oh, and I got a parking upgrade. But only a temporary tag because this new med is going to work and help my knees so I can walk for exercise and train for another damn 3-Day, if I want.