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Moving Past 152

Saturday, September 25, 2010

152 was a huge number for me. It not only marked my 100 pound loss mark, but also my entry into an overweight BMI. I was hoping to continue losing throughout the summer before hubby and I officially started trying to conceive baby, but God had other plans and we found out we were expecting just about one month after reaching this milestone weight.

I had only made it down to 148. That didn't give me much room to grow before getting back into that obese category, even though I know the same BMI calculation/numbers don't work for pregnant women. Right now I'm bouncing between 152 and 154, which I knew would happen, but it doesn't make it any easier, mentally.

I've found that I need to be open and honest with my husband about how I'm feeling about my weight gain because I can't handle it completely on my own. His reassurance and reminders that I am a healthy, athletic and strong person are exactly what I need to hear.

Don't get me wrong; I'm thrilled for this pregnancy and for Jellybean's arrival, but it's definitely taking some mental tolls on me. It's stressful and I don't think that people who haven't experienced significant weight loss can understand the feelings of watching the scale creep up, even for the best of reasons.

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  • HICIM705
    Try to remember how you started this blog - your second sentence ... you lost 100 lbs!!! THAT is an AWESOME accomplishment. You did it - you were there.

    You're right - no matter how understanding anyone tries to be, they just CAN'T get into your head, thoughts and feelings. I'm sure that you shared your feelings with your doctor, you already said that you have an open dialogue with DH and ... then there is US - your virtual friends who keep trying to encourage you to eat right (and, unfortunately what's messing with your head/heart - a little extra - for Jellybean).

    I think I speak for everyone when I say - we are here for you ... and, hopefully, making you feel better and not worse about what is totally normal. Please remember, the stress you are feeling - I think it's probably normal for someone in your situation - but ... try to relax and focus on that beautiful baby that you will be meeting 'in person' very soon!!!
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  • HICIM705
    Try to remember how you started this blog - your second sentence ... you lost 100 lbs!!! THAT is an AWESOME accomplishment. You did it - you were there.

    You're right - no matter how understanding anyone tries to be, they just CAN'T get into your head, thoughts and feelings. I'm sure that you shared your feelings with your doctor, you already said that you have an open dialogue with DH and ... then there is US - your virtual friends who keep trying to encourage you to eat right (and, unfortunately what's messing with your head/heart - a little extra - for Jellybean).

    I think I speak for everyone when I say - we are here for you ... and, hopefully, making you feel better and not worse about what is totally normal. Please remember, the stress you are feeling - I think it's probably normal for someone in your situation - but ... try to relax and focus on that beautiful baby that you will be meeting 'in person' very soon!!!
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    2259 days ago
  • BRENDALEE1231
    Congratulations on such a success at the weight loss and your pregnancy too!!
    Sounds like your husband is going to be there right along your side!!! Its great to have a support system like that!!

    2259 days ago
  • CONFUSEDBIRD
    Kudos to you for being honest with him and letting him to help you! Too bad he can't carry Jellybean for you! emoticon
    2259 days ago
  • BENJAMINSBABY
    Awwww hunny. *HUG* I'm sure this is trying and I'm really impressed ny how open and honest you are with yourself, hubby, and us. That takes a lot of guts! You lost 104 lbs! How freaking amazing! And you know what? You'll get back down to 148 and below it again after baby comes. Because if you could lose 100, you can do this too! If there's ever anything I can do, I'm totally here for you. I've never been pregnant, so I can't relate in that way, but three years ago I got down to 123 from 156 and vowed I'd never be that big again...and then I got up to 178. Just remember this isn't you gaining the wieght; it's you carrying your baby and his/her weight :) xoxo God Bless you and your growing family!
    2259 days ago
  • MELISSAJUSTINA
    Kassi your doing awesome. It's so great that your husband is very supportive. Keep up the good work girl!
    2260 days ago
  • JANIE724
    Wow - 100 pounds! That is ABSOLUTELY FANTASTIC! I've lost weight and for whatever reason see it creep up, and I know that feeling - it's horrible. BUT - you have a super reason why it's happening to you, and it's that little jelly bean. You need to keep that in mind, but also don't let yourself take the excuse to gain more weight than you should. You know what you need to do. And, sticking to a minimal and healthy weight gain makes it better for you and most importantly for the jelly bean!!! Once the jelly bean enters the world, you'll drop the weight again because of the care and nutrition you'll provide to them. And, you'll have this GREAT additional motivator to stick to your plan! It's just like recruiting someone on your personal team - how neat!!!!!
    2260 days ago
  • KSLADYBUG
    100 lbs?! That's AMAZING!!! I know it's hard to look past where you "need" to be ... "Look where you're going, not where you've been" (as my mom used to say) But in this case, you need to reflect in what you've already accomplished! At one point, I had lost 50 and it was devistating when I weighed and gained even a couple pounds. But to remember that I had come this far always gave me a little peace of mind. You're doing great and will continue to do so! emoticon
    2260 days ago
  • BEECHNUT13
    You're not obese. You're pregnant. You are an overweight pregnant woman, and that is it. You just focus on having a healthy and fit pregnancy, and when you have your jelly bean you will lose the baby weight. I know it's hard to keep in mind that you're pregnant right now, and not getting fat, since you're probably not really showing yet or anything... but stuff is happening and things are changing, and your bean is growing!
    2260 days ago
  • SUESINK
    Hey! I have been there! Years ago after my son was born (1989) I shed all but 10 pounds bringing me back down to my marriage weight. My Slender Center consultant and I couldn't budge me off that 160 pound point! Well, went to the doctor and low and behold I was expecting my 3rd child. It was NOT planned at all. I hated those numbers on the scale going up - but you know what.... It was the healthiest pregnancy I had! I ate so much better and healthier and enjoyed exercising. Because of nursing her after she was born the weight nearly fell off in no time! Don't be discouraged. Just keep up with the healthy lifestyle and don't fall into that I'm eating for 2 mentality and eat all the bad stuff out there - stay healthy! and God Bless!
    2260 days ago
  • BEAR2009
    I've been eagerly following your pregnancy (I'm still a sucker for pregnant women and babies, even after having 2 of my own, think it's the most amazing miracle of all). I have been constantly amazed and in awe of how well you are taking care of yourself, and how much exercise you've managed to fit in. You are totally justified in feeling anxious about gaining any weight, even though you "know" it's healthy - sometimes the head and the heart don't communicate. I'm glad your husband is so supportive, and I know you know that the weight gain is good for you and jellybean, and that you will lose it easily after you give birth (my husband jokingly refers to that as the "pregnancy diet" - the easiest way to lose a lot of weight in the shortest period of time).
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  • LAURA_ALINE
    Congratulations on the pregnancy! You are right to lean on your husband for emotional support.. the trick in this is knowing when you need help (we all do) and being able to ask for it.
    Try not to get worried or stressed - those are just such energy drains! Practice deep breathing (it really helps with stress!) and positive thinking during those times..
    Hope you have a good day!
    Laura

    2260 days ago
  • GROEDER
    Congratulations on your weight loss and on your new baby that is on the way!!!!!
    I have absolutely NO experience about a pregnancy, but is seems to me that if you keep eating healthy and remain active (and don't worry about the scale) during this time, you should be able to continue toward your goals after the baby is born.
    By losing 100 pounds you have already done something amazing that most people have no idea about what it really takes to accomplish!!! Be proud of yourself and enjoy this time.
    I wish you the very best for a happy healthy baby and continued success!
    2260 days ago
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