Saturday, September 25, 2010
152 was a huge number for me. It not only marked my 100 pound loss mark, but also my entry into an overweight BMI. I was hoping to continue losing throughout the summer before hubby and I officially started trying to conceive baby, but God had other plans and we found out we were expecting just about one month after reaching this milestone weight.
I had only made it down to 148. That didn't give me much room to grow before getting back into that obese category, even though I know the same BMI calculation/numbers don't work for pregnant women. Right now I'm bouncing between 152 and 154, which I knew would happen, but it doesn't make it any easier, mentally.
I've found that I need to be open and honest with my husband about how I'm feeling about my weight gain because I can't handle it completely on my own. His reassurance and reminders that I am a healthy, athletic and strong person are exactly what I need to hear.
Don't get me wrong; I'm thrilled for this pregnancy and for Jellybean's arrival, but it's definitely taking some mental tolls on me. It's stressful and I don't think that people who haven't experienced significant weight loss can understand the feelings of watching the scale creep up, even for the best of reasons.