Friday, September 24, 2010
This is one of those days that I must seize...or I'll be seized by a bout of negative thoughts and even more negative actions. I binged last night out of complete nervous frustration. Haven't done that in quite a while..Now I'm living with the guilt and the fear that my monster will take over and control ME instead of me controlling it. I'll be checking in with myself hourly to remind myself..I'm not going back to the old way of thinking nor the old way of eating. I can't control my surroundings, I can't even affect them, if I can't first control my own mind and actions. So today it's all about control....SELF CONTROL. I need it in volumes today!