Thursday, September 23, 2010
Last week I lost my job after 24 years of service. The next day I lost my aunt, my mother's twin sister who has been a second mother to me all my life. She was there to fill the huge gap in my heart when my mom died almost two years ago. With all this loss in my life right now, the hole in my heart and the pit in my stomach, how do I keep doing what I have been doing to get to a healthier place in my life? So far eating hasn't been a problem....I can barely swallow most of the time! I have been too busy to do much in the way of excercise, but I am going to go for a walk in the beautiful weather today. I have to believe that ultimately things will be better at some point, but it is pretty daunting and scary at the same time. I know I need to get on a schedule similar to when I was working and make sure that fitness and healthy eating are a part of that schedule. I also am calmed by the fact that had I not started this journey almost exactly one year ago I would be in a very different position mentally than I am right now. I have confidence that I did not have at that time. I have gained that confidence through healthy eating, exercise and persistence in using all the tools available to me. Those same strategies along with all the social tools here will help me get through this. I can't abandon what has helped me get this far!!