Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Huh. Just a couple posts ago, I talked about how much I hate doing the same damn thing over and over again. Um. That was something like three years ago. And here I am again. Bigger than ever. How truly disappointing.
The good news is, I quit smoking almost seven months ago. After thirty five years. Sure, I quit a few times over those years but never for very long. And never forever. Now, it's forever. Because I know if I ever picked up another cigarette, I couldn't do this again. I did it, I'm done...I'm an ex-smoker for good and ever. Amen.
I went easy on myself. OK, really it wasn't easy. It was permission to eat whatever I wanted. Chocolate and chips? Why not? As long as I don't smoke. Donuts, bagels, homemade french fries, cinnamon rolls. Yes, I'm a carbovore.
And now? Now I can't walk. I've been off my RA meds for far too long (med insurance, yes we need it. I'm in too much pain. The extra weight makes it even worse. I need to take some pressure off my knees to see if that makes them better enough to function again with meds.
So. Here I am, again.