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Has It Been THAT Long?

Monday, September 20, 2010

I've been spending a lot of time lately reflecting on where I am in my weight loss/healthier lifestyle journey and I realized this morning that my Sparkversary is coming up very soon. On October 2nd, I will have been a Sparker for 2 years. Where does the time go!?

The realization of my impending anniversary sparked me (pun intended) to look back at my Year in Review blog from last year. I just wanted to remember where I was then and whether, in 2 more weeks, I'll be able to report any progress over the last year.

I've honestly been a bit disappointed with myself this year. I have taken more "breaks" than I should have. I have allowed the wants and needs of others (husband, kids, work, friends, parents, etc.) to get in the way of MY wants and needs much more often than I had hoped I would. I did not meet all of the goals I set for myself in that Review blog last year. I did not arrive at my goal weight, I did not run a 5K in March (although I did run/walk one in May with some VERY dear SP/BBC friends!). Finally, I did not make as much time for myself as I had intended.

I'm really tired of setting goals and failing to meet them. It's something I have been struggling with for quite awhile now. If it were just me, I wouldn't have any trouble at all. I have no problem budgeting - money, time, space, calories. You name it, I can organize it and make it happen. However, I'm not alone in this universe. I'm very rarely ever even alone at home. What I struggle with is trying to balance a budget when there are a bunch of crazy loved ones wanting a piece of the pie! (or wanting me to MAKE pie, as the case may very well be. I do have kids, after all. And pie tastes good, especially with vanilla ice cream, which makes it hard to “be good”, you know, when there’s pie in the house…)

In 2 weeks, I will begin my 3rd year as a Sparker. My "Year 2 In Review" blog will reflect a year of not-quite-met goals but it will reflect positive progress made. I may not have MET all of the goals that I set for myself but I did work towards them. In this crazy universe of my life, maybe I shouldn't be so hard on myself. I did accomplish many things, even if they weren't the things I found worth writing about last year. Over the next 2 weeks, I will reflect on the things I DID accomplish. I will try yet again to budget for my goals and figure out which are the most important to me so that next year, I don't have to be disappointed in me again. Stay tuned for a much more positive Year 2 in Review.
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    Sometimes the priorities shift for a bit. Yours did I believe and yet you still hung on and didn't REgain the weight. That is something, right there. No you may not have made all the progress you wanted to make, but give yourself some credit for what you did do. Keep sparking and you can meet those goals! Also try making a list of priorities with your name on the list somewhere and then try hard to spend your time well for me anyhow. Also, I bow down to anyone who can get up at 5am to workout...even if it's not everyday. That takes dedication. You're doing well, Heather.
    2732 days ago
    I agree focus on the positives. Don't wallow in the "didn't do" stuff. Its way more helpful. I am impressed with all you do - mom, work out of the house, play pool, family commitments, wife, etc.
    2734 days ago
    You can do it! I say focus on the things you DID do in the last yr. You've kept plugging away, despite some disappointments! Here's to a great coming yr! emoticon
    2735 days ago
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