I am just not good at keeping up with blogging! I want to try to be more consistent though, so maybe I will set specific days of the week to write blog entries. I'd have to think more about why I don't like to blog, but I'm guessing part of it is that I just don't feel like I have anything interesting to say. Or I am afraid of 'putting stuff out there' and not getting any feedback on it.

Well, today I am going to take the leap, and write out some of my thoughts and reflections of the first month+ I have been on SparkPeople. I have to say that I have really been enjoying it. A small part of me loves getting all the points and trophies, and it keeps me logging in and tracking things. I do have an addictive personality, but I think this is a better thing to be addicted to than a lot of other stuff I can think of!

SP has also really helped my attitude. Every time I slip up, or struggle with something related to food and weight loss, I know and can see that other people are going through the same thing. Thank you to all the article writers, forum posters, bloggers, etc. You've really made me feel less alone.

I'm really proud of myself for being consistent with my exercising and strength training. I know that I'm maybe not working as hard as I could be (I still really hate to sweat!) but I've been making myself do something on the days that I have scheduled, even if it's just a slow walk.

The weight really came off fast the first few weeks, which was awesome. Now, it's slowed down quite a bit, and that's hard! I'm still hoping to make my first mini-goal, even with setbacks. I know I can do it; two steps forward, one step back is still moving forward. I'm excited to do my measurements in a week or so, hopefully they will also show progress.

I can tell that this time is going to be the time. It is going to take a while, I know it's going to be hard, and there will be times when I'm discouraged and want to quit. But I won't. I will stay strong and keep going, because I'm tired of being afraid, self-conscious, and depressed. Thank you SP for being such a great tool for my journey!