Sunday, September 19, 2010
Well I had an interesting call last night but now it's got me upset if it comes to making a decision. A friend of mine called me and said she may have a job opportunity for me. It would be about an hour and a half away from where I live so I'd have to move. The good thing would be, it could be a GREAT opportunity and a chance of a lifetime. She also offered to let me stay with her and would have the first floor of her house, which would save me a ton of money until I figured out what to do. It would also get me out of the dead end job I have now and get me closer to a city where there would be more to do, more people to meet, etc...
Ok, here's what's upsetting me. My cat... she won't let me bring her. Now to most people they would say it's a no brainer, cats come along everyday. But I don't feel that way. She's all I have. I lost my family to cancer over the last few years and I saved her from being sent to the SPCA. I've had her for two years and we're all each other has. I can't even look at her without it breaking my heart to think of getting rid of her. I would feel like I abandoned her. She was rescued as a kitten, someone had just dumped her and her siblings in the cold. She was the only survivor. Then she was given to me because the people that had her didn't want her. So I hate the thought of upsetting her life again. I'm a huge animal lover and it's killing me to think of losing her.
It's not a guaranteed job so I could be worrying for nothing...but I need to think about it. Do I pass up an amazing opportunity for her? People would think I'm an idiot. But do I lose the one thing I have that depends on me? I could try to find her a place to live temporarily until I could find a place of my own but I don't know how long that would take or how much more the cost of living is in the city.
I'm so torn... it makes me cry having to think about it. What do I do if it comes down to having to choose??