Saturday, September 18, 2010
Cloudy morning - rain
threatens - noon arrives with sun -
flag football is on!
Our eight year-old grandson is playing his second year of flag football at the Y. He and his teammates have changed since last fall - older, hopefully more knowledgeable academically, taller, more focused, and their camaraderie is playful and supportive. Those of us on the sidelines probably have changed some over the past year - hopefully for the better.
How have I changed since last fall? I found that I had maintained a 32 pound (out of 50 pounds) loss. The weight I gained was oppressing my spirit, depressing my energy level, and expressing loss of coping strategies. The holidays, beginning with my first purchase of candy for Halloween (in late September) through Christmas only gave me opportunities to 'take care of myself' with treats. Many, many treats.
What a gift to find SparkPeople in late December! A month before my DH and I had joined a gym. Spark and my gym work fit and helped me onto my journey to healthier living. Over time I lost 12 pounds and enjoyed cardio and ST at the gym. Then ...
... in mid May I shifted to all work mode so I could get away for a week's vacation in Las Vegas. I've allowed myself to be on a little up a few pounds, down a few pounds, up a few pounds mini-rollercoaster. I've allowed myself to be satisfied with occasional exercise, a bit more walking, and -- here I am today. Trying periodically to get back on track, into the 'game' mentally, using the tools that made such a difference in the early months of 2010. I'm less on a plateau than wandering in a wilderness. I have my periods in the Sparkling oases - eating well, moving lots more- Great! And then the storm of 'other things' swamps my mind and deposits sand in my motivation gears and I'm wandering again!
No excuses. I'm a mature, knowledgeable woman, very responsible in my work, my marriage and much of my life. Yet I seem to have attention/perception/direction disorder in caring for my physical body. I do know some good principles and the following is one.
"Each new moment is a new opportunity to make a movement forward on the right path." So in this moment, I have a full 16 oz glass of water by my side, and in this new moment I will find my pedometer, and in this next moment I will walk some, and in this following moment I will ...